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What If Instead

For “Joe”


“There’s time to live and time to die
When it’s time to meet the maker
There’s time to live, but isn’t it strange
That as soon as you’re born, you’re dying…


…and reborn again??”

“Clairvoyant”

– Iron Maiden




What if instead

During the human “dying process,”

When you hear the term “end of life,”

It gets replaced with “end of chapter”

Since another will surely follow

Not to euphemise death, per se

As to pretend it does not occur

But rather change the perspective

As a continuation of an energy

That once materialized into

This dimension from another

(Why else, is it called, an arrival?

Because the Stork, comes from….?)

On a journey to yet a different realm

Serving purposes in various stages

The anticipation of their “arrival”

Smiles, coos, first words, crawling,

Eating, pooping, wiping, bathing,

Standing, walking, birthdays, speaking,

Peddling, dancing, singing, learning,

Playing, reading, engaging, testing,

Passing, failing, falling, trying, growing,

Developing a personality, understanding,

Making funny faces, laughing, crying,

Joking, lying, confessing, truthing,

Skiing, swimming, skating, sledding,

Stealing, returning, begging, apologizing,

Driving, speeding, crashing, healing,

Maturing, working, earning, saving,

Spending, wasting, drinking, recovering,

Dining, dating, anticipating, marrying,

Procreating, starting this process again,

Guiding, teaching, sharing, learning,

Traveling, sightseeing, experiencing,

Maturing, retiring, resting, sleeping,

Remembering, forgetting, forgiving,

Eating, pooping, wiping, bathing,

Smiles, grunts, last words, waving,

The consternation of their “departure”

This is where the story splits

They go on in a chapter you can’t read

While you re-read the chapter, they were in

Or burn the book depending on circumstances




Either way, it is all just energy

You experience as it occurs

Good, bad, indifferent, wasted

Remembered or forgotten





“All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves.”

– Bill Hicks





“Heaven Can Wait”

“Can’t understand what is happening to me
This isn’t real. This is only a dream
But I never have felt, no I never have felt this
way before
I’m looking down on my body below
I lie asleep in the midst of a dream
Is it now could it be the Angel of Death has come for me
I can’t believe that really my time has come
I don’t feel ready. There’s so much left undone
And it’s my soul, and I’m not gonna let it get away

Heaven can wait / Heaven can wait
Heaven can wait / Heaven can wait ’til another day

I have a lust for the Earth below
And Hell itself is my only foe
‘Cause I’ve no fear of dying
I’ll go when I’m good and ready
I snatch a glimpse of the lights’ eternal rays
I see a tunnel I stand amazed
At all of the people standing there in front of me
Into the paths of rightness, I’ll be led
Is this the place where the living join the dead
I wish I knew this was only just a nightmare


Take my hand. I’ll lead you to the promised land
Take my hand. I’ll give you immortality
Eternal youth, I’ll take you to the other side
To see the truth, the path for you is decided

My body tingles. I feel so strange
I feel so tired. I feel so drained
And I’m wondering if I’ll ever be the same again
Is this in limbo or Heaven or Hell
Maybe I’m going down there as well
I can’t accept my soul will drift forever
I feel myself floating back down to Earth
So could this be the hour of my rebirth
Or have I died, or will I wake from dreaming?”

Heaven Can Wait…….

– Iron Maiden

Comedy And Tragedy

Plus a little magic



Comedians are funny

Leaders lead

Comedians do not lead

Leaders are not funny

It confuses things

Comedians have

No one to lead

They are individuals

Leading themselves

Making people laugh

By telling the truth

Or embellishing

Exaggeration to make fun




Unfortunately leaders

Manipulate truths

To lead people

Incapable of

Leading themselves





In the end, nothing

Really ever changes

The question then is

Would you rather laugh

By hearing some truths

Or be lied to assuming it

Does someone else good



“Laughter is the corrective force which prevents us from becoming cranks.”

― Henri Bergson



The same goes for magicians

They do not describe how

They will perform the illusion

(Except for Penn & Teller

But, that’s another story)

They do it, and you are in awe

Trying to figure it out now & later



Yet, if they say they are going to

Pull a rabbit out of an “empty” hat

You focus on the hat and how….

Not to be distracted by sleight of mind




Of course, when no effort is made

To actually produce a rabbit

You realize slowly that there was never

Going to be any rabbit anywhere

That it was intended to string

You along from distraction

To distraction while no magic

Ever gets done, just a series

Of hyperbole for its own sake

Plus the ego of the petulant magician




With just enough audience members

Left to keep others from leaving by

Cajoling them into staying because

This time, he will do it….just watch

Not realizing, the suspense is killing them

If only the entire audience would just

Wake up, pack up, and leave the performer

He would have no one to perform for



Trouble is, we are a

Hopeful gambling species

A collective Charlie Brown

Trusting that this time

Lucy will hold the ball

So we can kick it forever far

Meanwhile, each time

No matter how many times

We trust and trust and trust

We land flat on our back

Winded, bruised, ashamed

But willing to trust again




Shame on us

So busy laughing and crying

At the comedy and tragedy

We fail to recognize

Our own ability to perform

Our own magic

Of being kind,

Helpful and compassionate

To our fellow space travelers

In other words……

Since we are all one……

To our selves



The entertainment for the next 4 years is not new. You’ve seen this entertainment through and through. Nothing will change or get done, but hopefully, at the end, you will be laughing and not crying boo-hoo.


My apologies to Jim Morrison


No Alternatives



To alter the overall experience

The collective is having now

As the distractions are

Coming in full steam ahead

By intention or circumstance

AI, man-made, or nature

Sadly, like a runaway train

Each will have to run their course

Inevitably crashing or slowed by gravity



“If you don’t want it
It remains the same
It’s a heart of darkness
That wants to play that game
If there’s no defiance
It remains insane
If it’s all compliance
It’s ’s a runaway train

It’s a runaway train. “

“Runaway Train”

– Geddy Lee


Fortunately for the first two, AI & man

Nature is a self correcting system

Nature made human, human-made AI

Nature likes to show off to get our attention

To exhibit as to who is really in charge

If we can only learn to follow her,

Our mother earth, will we learn balance

Until then, we have no alternatives

But to ride out the runaway train

Universal Universes



Everyone’s own solipsistic universe

Is immersed in with everyone else’s

Keeping them separate when necessary

Or intermingled when it is required

All depends on shared energies,

Openness, reception, and awareness



To seek out other’s help is to recognize

That the other person in your world…..is you

The same thing goes in reverse, so it would seem

When you help others, you are helping yourself






Seeing As How


I can not prove anything

But merely present

Both sides of a situation



“The optimist proclaims that we live in the best of all possible worlds; and the pessimist fears this is true.”

— James Branch Cabell



It must be my contrarian

Nature not to stand for

Anything, save hoping

That truths may reveal

Themselves in mirrors of

Words, content & context

Projections and perceptions



There is no proof in any

Beliefs or feelings

That are as substantial

As the cold dark

Vacuum of space

We pass through each moment

Save being a part of it

While also rushing through

The God Particle

At non break neck

Breakneck speed

Including everything and nothing



Leaving the same in our

Track less wake behind us

In moments, microseconds,

Jiffies, minutes, days,

Weeks, months years,

Generations and lifetimes

Measured in inches or centimeters

Miles or kilometers

Eons, lifetimes or infinity




It is all happening all at once

Yet, we get to experience it

Miraculously and linearly

For no purpose or meaning

Other than what we assign

Whichever momentary reason

Tickles our fancy

For a serotonin surge

While carrying our baggage

Of old faded memories

Alongside future plans

(That’s a lot to carry)

Yet, can not hold on to

One moment to the next

Having come from

No where, now here

Not digitized or compressed

Into a zip or hard drive

Rather a gray spongey

Infinite capacity brain

That is very slowly

Allegedly evolving

With no extra hardware

Co-powered between

The mind and heart

Seeing as how there is

No separation

Between those

Likewise it is the same

Between ourselves

And all of infinity.









Involuntary Vomit


Wouldn’t it be great and evolutionary if one were to involuntarily vomit after ingesting (hearing, and or seeing) toxic (useless for the soul’s advancement) information.

Same goes, after one’s bullshit meter stays pegged at max.

“You’ll be listening to some guy, saying, well, he’s fairly intelligent.

Ah, he’s full of shit.”


– George Carlin


Hurl, spew, heave, wretch, purge, egurgitate

Like drinking excessive or dangerous amounts of alcohol, your body (in order to protect itself) expunges the overwhelming toxins. Usually in the form and / or color of food sitting underneath it.

For example, listening to corporate/government/propaganda media randomly is like a single glass of wine or a cold beer. You stop by, listen, and move on. No harm, no foul. Its lasting effects / affects are usually gone within an hour.

But when you listen over and over, imbibing excessively on the same drinks, (fear, hate, division) delivered by different bartenders (show hosts, aka talking heads) at the same bar (networks) you involuntarily vomit. With nary a chance to make it to a porcelain throne.

Since it is your brain, overwhelmed by the deceptions and distractions, it produces a gray bile, different from “regular” puke, so you would at least know when to stop. Leave the bad bar. (Turn off the TV or radio)

Drink some coffee (listen to music / read a book) to let your brain and imagination recuperate. Question why it was necessary to even seek out such toxicity. …

Perhaps, recognize that the perceived inadequacies of self are the cause of both alcohol consumption and deceptive distractions. Realize that you are enough without substances or sour sentences strung together to strangulate your sense of self.














Altering A Belief



Is like discarding

A distinct indelible memory

Or, an indoctrinated one



Part of your existence

Is tethered to your beliefs

Without a Bluetooth pairing

Or a wireless connection

To a local area network

Or even stored in a “cloud”



It is just an infinite coupling

In the elusive ether of

Something you can not

See, touch, smell, or hear

Yet, you “know” it is there




Imagine that

How one conducts themselves…

Treat people, work, save, spend

Share, speak, drive, eat, etc…

Stem from neurological

Electrical impulses

Which can not be undone

Or replicated similarly




Where are memories stored

Whatever happened

Happened back there

In both nonexistent time

Plus, un-locatable space



If people believe

That they believe

In the “same” “God”

A small series

Of questions

Will bear out that

Nobody does

But are willing

For the sake of

A convenient label

That they do

My guess is that it is

A safety in numbers thing



Making it fair

Arrogant or

Egotistical to say



I will believe

In your God or

What you believe

When you can

Disprove my

Solipsism



That is how

Easy it is to

Alter a belief



Fear Fear


More than you

Fear death

For death will only

Kill you once

Fear will kill you

Constantly and

Mercilessly


The Reality Bending



Mind numbing

Cognitive dissonance

Dichotomous information

Coming through

Multiple outlets

Generated from

The exact same source

(Advertisers)

Via constant content

Through news and sports

Scandals and cover-ups

Recycled and repeated

Content to confuse with

Competing contexts

Chaos and conundrums

Reveals clearly what

Not who is in control

That of the multinational

Greedy pig corporations

Serving humanity by

Destroying its habitat

Through consumption

Of temporary items

Ready to replace

With recycled rubbish

By reminding you

You are not enough

Without abysmal

Emptiness filling stuff



“I don’t know what word in the English language, I can’t find one, applies to people who are willing to sacrifice the literal existence of organized human life so they can put a few more dollars into highly stuffed pockets, the word evil doesn’t even begin to approach it. ”

– Noam Chomsky


Let this sink in.

“Chomsky is credited with revolutionizing the linguistics field by introducing the Chomsky hierarchy, generative grammar and the concept of a universal grammar, which underlies all human speech and is based in the innate structure of the mind/brain.”

– College of Social and Behavioral Sciences



In an effort to unbend reality, next time you are at a store, look at the stuff you are not looking for. The stuff, usually hanging “randomly” on an extension of the shelf you are walking by.

As I write this, what comes to mind is a “brand”- piece of plastic square two-piece sandwich holder. Retail, about $ 4.⁰⁰ with probably a $ .⁷⁷ COGS bottom line expense. If purchased by whoever, it will probably get used about five times before it ends up in the trash. Then, going back to the disposable sandwich, clear double sealed bags that do the same thing with less hassle.

Whether it be that, or whatever eye-catching garbage is for sale, stop and contemplate that somewhere it was manufactured using petroleum products to make it, cardboard, plastic, and ink to package it. Shipped from thousands of miles away, stuffed into a metal container, unloaded near a shore, transferred to a warehouse.

Organized to be redistributed to competing retailers, for just-in-time inventory to hundreds of various retailers. Only to land in a landfill. Which will require more petroleum to power the bulldozers used to bury the discarded plastic.

If through other means, it doesn’t end up floating in the ocean. Which gets there, by dumping it……in the ocean. Ooopsie. As part of the process of manufacturing the stuff we will throw away anyway.



“Ever wonder why we’re fucked up as a species?”


– Bill Hicks


Whether you buy it or not, look down the burgeoning soda aisle, with all of its brightly colored distinctive corporate packaging. Now imagine, if it was all just black lettering on a white background that read. Hi fructose colored flavored corn syrup with fizzy carbonation, forcing you to look for the “flavor” you wanted in small print. Next to the “diet” sodas, loaded with aspartame. Which aren’t really about diet and more for addiction.

Who knew a glass of water would sound so appealing right now.




“I write to expunge the darkness
So that someday
Light may shine through”


– Angelo Devlin

My Best Perception

“Youths are passed through schools that don’t teach. Then forced to search for jobs that don’t exist and finally left stranded to stare at the glamorous lives advertised around them.”

– Huey Newton



My best perception

Of the parable of

Pavlov’s pups is

Not to play along

With pings of peals

As per programming

Of pupil patriotism

Per paltry pledges

Via public performances


Whew


Here’s where this came from….


Whilst attending a grandchild’s, for lack of better words, brain competition, (finally, not sport). Held early in the school’s gym.

Sitting on the bleachers waiting for it to start, before the participants came out, the bell had rung. Basically, a short, near what could be considered a brief “fire alarm” burst of sound to start the school children’s day. Followed by… a militaristic monotone recitation of the pledge of allegiance, way too loud.

I get it and understand

“The Pledge of Allegiance, ultimately, is coffee for elementary school students. “… And to the republic for which it stands, one nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.

FUCK, I’m at SCHOOL! Can we say it again? I need a second cup.”

– Lewis Black


However, the gathering attendees (alleged adults), much to my shock, horror, dismay, incredulity, put down their phones, and or stopped their conversations, to stand and face a flag, put their hand over their heart and……. FOLLOWED ALONG……. to no one, leading the “Pledge” for no reason whatsoever. Aaagggghhhhh.

Either everyone rose to play along and pretend they are patriotic by participating (maybe, they’ll get a trophy) or, more likely they are so indoctrinated in their behavior, since near birth, they fail fabulously at their critical thinking skills, to realize, that “The Pledge” was not intended for them.



“And Liberty…

The meaning of Liberty

The dictionary definition…

“Liberty means freedom from government restriction and control”.

Not only do we not have liberty.

Who has less liberty than the children, you make say this. (Pledge)

That’s the irony. They get the least liberty, you’ve had it. We don’t have, they got… [??] They can’t do shit.

We got the oldest children in the world in this country.”


– Doug Stanhope



Unfortunately, that wasn’t the worst of it. It was followed by an extended slogan of grade school gibberish as to thoughtless conduct of behavior towards fellow students.

Certainly not to behave in an individual way of decency, kindness for its own sake, but rather a group programmed one. Triggered to a tee to salivate subconsciously of social conditioning.


“You know what stickers I hate? The ones that say ‘We are the proud parents of an honor student at Mars High’ or whatever other innocent sounding name, that has been assigned by the indoctrination center where their child has been sent to be stripped of his individuality and turned into an obedient-souldead-conformist member of the american consumer culture.

Proud parents? What kind of empty people need to validate themselves through the acheivements of their children?

Here’s a bumper sticker I’d like to see:

‘We are the proud parents of a child whose self-esteem is sufficient that he doesn’t need us promoting his minor scholastic acheivements on the back of our car’ or ‘We are the proud parents of a child who has resisted his teacher’s attempts to break his spirit and bend him to the will of his corporate masters’ ”

– George Carlin

“Pity The Nation”

“Pity the nation whose people are sheep
And whose shepherds mislead them
Pity the nation whose leaders are liars
Whose sages are silenced
and whose bigots haunt the airways
Pity the nation that raises not its voice
but aims to rule the world
by force and by torture
And knows
No other language but its own
Pity the nation whose breath is money
and sleeps the sleep of the too well fed
Pity the nation Oh pity the people of my country
My country, tears of thee
Sweet land of liberty!”

– Lawrence Ferlinghetti




Does Pavlov ring a bell?


https://www.simplypsychology.org/pavlov.html



“Humanity” is not very pretty

When it sees itself

In a collective mirror.”


– Angelo Devlin