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Enigma



I’m an optimistic nihilist

A humanitarian misanthrope

An inconvenient servant

Anesthetised to sensation

Bored with excitement

Harmoniously incongruent

Schadenfreudenly masochistic

Proud of my incredible humility



I get along with people who

Don’t get along with each other

A contrarian’s contrarian when

I don’t even agree with myself

Having a penchant for entropy

Watching greatness arise

From scattered ashes




“I enjoy chaos and disorder – not just because they help me professionally – they’re also my hobby. You see, I’m an entropy fan.

When I first heard of entropy in high school science, I was attracted to it immediately.

When they told me that in nature, all systems are breaking down, I thought: What a good thing! What a good thing!

Perhaps I can make some small contribution in this area myself.

And of course, it’s not just in nature, in this country, the whole social structure… just beginning to collapse, you watch; just beginning now to come apart at the edges and the seams and the thing I like about that is that it means it makes the news on television more interesting, makes the television news more exciting, makes it more fun.”


– George Carlin




Whether one watches the news or not

We are here right now for the experience

The reality perceived is neither

Concrete, permanent, or recorded

That alone could change everything

To understand that, as Bill Hicks said

“There is only this moment.”




To be aware of a moment

In the moment, knowing

The next moment is

Just a moment away

While the last one

Was literally and figuratively

A moment ago





“Don’t fight the Matrix,

Experience it.”

– Angelo Devlin



















Pittance

Disguised

As reward

In the form

Of “Loyalty” to

Corporations

“Earning” “Points”

Like you did

Something

Meaningful

Well, you didn’t

Save committing

Gross consumption

On a habitual level

That you must

Return to, as an

Obedient purchaser

Because you are, and

Always, all ways will

Be a loyal consumer

Not just to one single

Multinational

But the ones disguised

As separate competitors

Jacking up prices

Not because it is necessary

Rather, because they can

And for what

Some artificial reward

Like saving a nickel

On a gallon of gas

Which, as it bounces

Either side of five dollars

Means one saved 1 %

Whew, I can retire

Knowing some

Digital bean counter

Knows my purchases

And consumer habits

So they can narrow cast

My next cashless move



Quite a lot of contemplation

For very little remuneration

Rather a sad song and dance

For such a meager pittance



“Between Angels And Insects”

“There’s no money. There’s no possessions
Only obsession, I don’t need that shit
Take my money, take my obsession

I just want to be heard,
Loud and clear are my words
Comin’ from within, man,
Tell ’em what you heard

It’s about a revolution
In your heart and in your mind
You can’t find the conclusion,
Life-style and obsession
Diamond rings get you nothing
But a life-long lesson
And your pocket-book stressin’

You’re a slave to the system,
Working jobs that you hate
For that shit you don’t need
It’s too bad that the world is based on greed
Step back and see,
Stop thinking about yourself
Start thinking about

There’s no money. There’s no possession
Only obsession, I don’t need that shit
Take my money, take my possession
Take my obsession, I don’t need that shit

‘Cause everything is nothing and
Emptiness is in everything
This reality is really just a fucked up dream
With the flesh and the blood
That you call your soul
Flip it inside out, it’s a big black hole

Take your money, burn it up like an asteroid
Possessions ‒ they are never gonna fill the void
Take it away and learn the best lesson
The heart, the soul, the life, the passion

There’s no money, there’s no possession
Only obsession, I don’t need that shit
Take my money, take my possession
Take my obsession, I don’t need that shit

Money, possession, obsession

Present yourself, press your clothes
Comb your hair and clock-in
You just can’t win
Just can’t win
The things you own,
Own you now

Take my money, take my possession
Take my obsession, I don’t need that shit

Fuck your money, fuck your possession
Fuck your obsession, I don’t need that shit

Money, possession, obsession,
I don’t need that shit”


– Papa Roach



Nevermind…….

Keep consuming so

I can stay behind the wheel



Fortunately, I get to do

What I love and the money follows


“Do what you love and the money will follow.”

― Marsha Sinetar 



“What do I know

I am just a person

Who drives a truck,”


– Angelo Devlin

Maybe God

Is all experiences

In an infinite sense

That in order to

Achieve being divine

Is to recognize each

Fractional moment

As it occurs in the now

Not reminisce over

Something that went well

After all that is

Already in the past





Nor pine away for a

Non-existent father figure

From an invisible

Man in the sky to a

Schmuck in the White House

Those daddies can’t fix shit

Any more than hoping

You will win the lottery to

Make all your money

Problems go away while

Creating different problems

You would not have

Dared to imagine



Maybe God


Is not the overseer to

Manage your life

In mysterious ways

That no one can explain

Without a little or

A lot of hypocrisy

But rather, every single

Thing to be experienced

From breathing to

Seeing, smelling,

Tasting, touching,

And hearing, while

Having the wherewithal

To think and project

Remember and understand

That you can love and help

Or hate, hurt, and destroy



Besides, there is no place

That you and God / Word

Are not in the same space

In other words, you are

Doing what God is doing

Subjectively experiencing

The whole of infinity

While being infinite ♾️

From a particular peculiar

Personal perspective




And…..according to

“Three Magic Words” by

Uuell S Anderson

(SPOILER ALERT)

“You Are God”



Right or wrong, or rather

Correct or incorrect

The kicker boils down to

Simple or extraordinary



“Faith”


“1 b (2) : sincerity of intentions


– m-w.com




“What God Wants, Part I”

“What God wants God gets
God help us all
What God wants God gets

The kid in the corner looked at the priest
And fingered his pale blue Japanese guitar

The priest said

God wants goodness
God wants light
God wants mayhem
God wants a clean fight
What God wants God gets

Don’t look so surprised
It’s only dogma
The alien prophet cried
The beetle and the springbok
Took the Bible from its hook
The monkey in the corner
Wrote the lesson in his book

What God wants God gets
God help us all
God wants peace
God wants war
God wants famine
God wants chain stores
What God wants God gets
God wants sedition
God wants sex
God wants freedom
God wants Semtex
What God wants God gets

Don’t look so afraid
I’m only joking
The alien comic lied
The jackass and hyena
Took the feather from its hook
The monkey in the corner
Wrote the joke down in his book

What God wants God gets
God wants borders
God wants crack
God wants rainfall
God wants wetbacks
What God wants God gets
God wants voodoo
God wants shrines
God wants law
God wants organised crime
God wants crusade
God wants jihad
God wants good
God wants bad
What God wants God gets”

– Roger Waters




What God Wants, Part II”

Do you believe in a better day
Do you have a faith in a golden way
If you do then we must come together this day
Come together as one united
Television audience
Brought together by the sound of my voice
United, united financially, united socially
United spiritually, and all possible ways
Through the power of money
And the power of your prayers

What God wants God gets
God help us all
God wants dollars
God wants cents
God wants pounds shillings and pence
God wants guilders
God wants kroner
God wants Swiss francs
God wants French francs
Oui il veut des francs francais
God wants escudos
God wants pesetas
Don’t send lira
God don’t want small potatoes
God wants small towns
God wants pain
God wants clean up rock campaigns
God wants widows
God wants solution
God wants TV
God wants contributions
What God wants God gets
God help us all
God wants silver
God wants gold
God wants his secret
Never to be told
God wants gigolos
God wants giraffes
God wants politics
God wants a good laugh
What God wants God gets
God help us all
God wants friendship
God wants fame
God wants credit
God wants blame
God wants poverty
God wants wealth
God wants insurance
God wants to covet himself
What God wants God gets

God help us all

– Roger Waters

“Amused To Death”




See, just like us

What God wants God gets

God / Word

Help us all




“I have faith, I exist.

If that is granted, then

Everything else is possible.”


– Angelo Devlin

The Perfect Tatoo




Since everyone

Has a tattoo

I am going

To get one, too



One that I have

A story behind

Something clever

Permanent to remind



A unique one to

Make me feel special

It will be that of

A matching freckle




It will represent the

Microscopic dot

That began me

On full display for

The whole world to see



Of course, no one

Including me

Will know which one it is

But I guess that is what

The perfect tattoo is




Methinks very few people
Read the tattoo artist’s
Disclaimer release form
That read. This ink drawing
Is permanent. Ooopsie.


What? This giant cartoon
Super hero painted on my arm
Isn’t going to wash off
After Halloween is over
But I have a job where people
Are supposed to take me seriously

Sheeeeeyet

I have to wait until
My next incarnation
To make a different decision
I hope I can remember that


Thankfully, in my 20s
I met someone with
So many tattoos
They were individually
Indistinguishable and
Basically, his arms were
Colored green and gray



“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”

– Angelo Devlin


















The World Disappears


The world disappears

When you go to sleep

I don’t know about you

But it gives me the creeps



What are you going to do

Stay awake for eternity

Which is just a little bit

Longer than infinity



No other option then

So rest, you must

Of course, while you’re away

You could be merely dust



Laying there allegedly dormant

Animated upon awakening

Seems possible, but still

That would be frightening



After all, you know that

You put yourself to bed

While you were there

Were you alive or dead



Which really does

Beg the question

Were you in hell or

Were you in heaven



You don’t even know

Where you went

Or how long you were gone

Was it time well spent



All I know is that

I will do it again

Try as I might to

Untrain my brain



Unable to face my fears

As the world disappears












Consider



The you, that is, “You”

Is holding together

A conglomeration

Of energized atoms


Approximately 7 octillion atoms
(7 times 10²⁷ or 7 billion billion billion)


– AI



Zipping around at

Incredibly fast speeds

Creating the illusion *

That you are made up

Of solid matter when

You are mostly water

Not to mention being

Mostly empty space


*
“The Illusion of Solidity


Mostly empty space: An atom is 99.9999999% empty space. If you imagined the nucleus of an atom as the size of a marble, the orbiting electrons would be like gnats spinning around a football stadium. The rest is completely empty vacuum.


Pure matter volume: If you squeezed all 7 octillion atoms in your body together to remove every bit of empty space, all the actual matter would fit into a speck smaller than a single grain of sand.


The weight: Even though that speck would be microscopic, it would still weigh exactly the same as your current body weight because the weight is concentrated entirely in the dense nucleus of each atom.”


– AI


Somewhere in that empty space

Is something called consciousness

That not only allows you to be

Allegedly, in anthropomorphic form

It allows you to consider that

The above may actually be true

All the while converting O² into CO²


“Do you think that is air you’re breathing?”


– Morpheous




Operating a digestive system, as

Hammers, anvils, and stirrups

Allow you to hear many sounds

Plus, having eyeballs to read this

Fingers to scroll this up or away




So, if your actual “you” is spread out

Over a spherical sized football stadium

At any given point, at any given moment

While having a fret, concern, or worry

A hope, dream, wish, or future plans

You would all of a sudden realize in

The grand scheme of things it would be so

Insignificant as to give it another thought



Heartache
Sorrow
The economy
Wars
The one percent
Immigration
Religion
Race
Gender
Conspiracies
Distractions

The same goes for

Joy
Happiness
Creativity
Peace
Love
Harmony
Cooperation
Unity
Wholeness
Understanding
Patience


Either realities spread out over

Such a vast area becomes

Hard to cling to let alone

One can not technically

Hold onto in the first place



In other words



Everywhere you are

You are everywhere



“Enjoy it,
Relax, enjoy the show,
Take a fucking chance,
Put a little fun in your life.”

– George Carlin


“We teach best,
What we need to learn most ourselves.”

– Richard Bach



“What do I know

I am just a person

Who drives a truck,”


– Angelo Devlin

What The World Needs Now


Is not love, sweet love

But rather one………

Gigantic squishy

One that everyone

Can feel while sitting

On their tushy

Large enough to soothe

Everyone’s anxiety

Big enough to share

Without possessivety



No need to trade or get

Multiple ones to aquire

Just one they can touch

Satiating their desire

That they are connected

As a part of the whole

Maybe it is love

That is needed after all


(Close enough, using my poetic license)



My apologies to Jackie DeShannon



“What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It’s the only thing that there’s just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love
No, not just for some but for everyone

Lord, we don’t need another mountain
There are mountains and hillsides
Enough to climb
There are oceans and rivers
Enough to cross
Enough to last ’til the end of time

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It’s the only thing that there’s just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love
No, not just for some but for everyone

Lord, we don’t need another meadow
There are corn fields and wheat fields
Enough to grow
There are sunbeams and moonbeams
Enough to shine
Oh, listen, Lord, if you want to know

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It’s the only thing that there’s just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love
No, not just for some but for everyone

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
What the world needs now is love, sweet love
What the world needs now is love, sweet love

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
What the world needs now is love, sweet love. “


– Jackie DeShannon

The Agreed To Construct


Construct:

1:something constructed by the mind: such as

a: a theoretical entity


– m-w.com



The Agreed To Construct



Seems to be in my best perception

Loosely linked to the idea of a Matrix

Without the malevolent overtones

Perpetrated by a desire to control

Nor having qualities of being benign

Simply a reality to be experienced

As of right now, in this very moment

It is the only thing that makes sense

Though it is difficult to break down

It must be a conscious creation of a

Collection of collaborating consciousness

For the sake of experiencing experiences *

Because logic tells us that infinity

Goes on forever in every direction

Also, from every direction, even internally

That is an infinite amount of infinity


“Where the telescope ends, the microscope begins.
Which of the two has the grander view?”

– Victor Hugo



Either way, each perspective goes on forever

Which to my best understanding, look similar



*
 “All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves.”

– Bill Hicks



There are no anomalies or glitches

Everything is working as agreed to


“You have nothing in your hands. 
Any power you have, comes to you, 
From far beyond.  Everything is fixed, 
And you can’t change it.”

– JC

“Jesus Christ Super Star”


Of course not, “We” signed “The Agreement”



All of the particles and waves

Behave in exacting fashion and form

As agreed to through observation

Via one or all of the five senses



Powered by what, nobody knows

Except the “logic” that electrons

Are zipping around a nucleus of

Protons, neutrons, neutrinos, and quarks

Held in place by an electrical charge

Yeah, sure, where are the batteries?

Where is the charging port / station?


Take your thumb, for instance

A human thumb contains roughly 1 septillion to a few septillion atoms (\(10^{24}\) to \(10^{25}\) atoms), scaling proportionally from estimates of an entire hand holding about 50 septillion atoms. Most of these atoms belong to water, carbon, oxygen, and hydrogen molecules that make up skin, bone, blood, and muscle tissue.

– AI

That is a lot of little agreements

Just to pick your nose and scratch your ass

More eloquently, to write a poem or play an instrument **


“Look at your hand. It’s one of the most incredible instruments in the universe. Of all the bones in the body, one fourth are in the hand.
Forget the hand. Look at your thumb; that wondrous mechanism that separates us from the other animals.

The world-famous opposable thumb, that amazing device, that has transported more students to college than the Boston post road. Ideal for sucking, especially as a baby, and lauded in song and story as the perfect instrument for pulling out a plum.

Or, in the case of the Caesars, for holding it down for the gladiator to die, or holding it up, which means “See you later at the orgy.” My friends, for getting up and down the pike, in your pie, in your eye, I give you the thumb.

Have you any idea, Farmer Brown, of the incredible complexity of this piece of human apparatus? Of course not. Never having spent any time at Sol and Sol’s swilling borscht and jamming Latin into your brain while trying to imagine if Lefty the waitress is wearing a garter belt, you have no idea of the balletic interplay of parts that make up the human thumb.

The flexor ossis metacarpi pollicis flexes the metacarpal bone, that is, draws it inward over the palm, thus producing the movement of opposition. And the Boy Scout salute. Because of this magical engineering, we could do this. And this. And this.

But our greatest triumph comes not from flexing the metacarpal bone and making a fist,which always seems to be thirsting to be clenched…No, no, no, no, no. Our greatest moment is when we open our hand:

Cradling a glass of wine, cupping a loved one’s chin. And the best… the most expert of all… keeping all the objects of our life in the air at the same time. [begins to juggle] My friends, for your amusement and bemusement, I give you the human person. Thumb and fingers flexing madly, straining to keep aloft the leaden realities of life: ignorance, death, and madness. Thus, we create for ourselves the illusion that we have power, that we are in control, that we are… loved”

– Hawkeye Pierce

“M * A * S * H”


**

[III. Discovery]

‘…Behind my beloved waterfall, in the little room that was hidden beneath the cave, I found it. I brushed away the dust of the years, and picked it up, holding it reverently in my hands. I had no idea what it might be, but it was beautiful…’

‘…I learned to lay my fingers across the wires, and to turn the keys to make them sound differently. As I struck the wires with my other hand, I produced my first harmonious sounds and soon my own music!

How different it could be from the music of the Temples! I can’t wait to tell the priests about it!…’

//

What can this strange device be?
When I touch it, it gives forth a sound
It’s got wires that vibrate and give music
What can this thing be that I found?

See how it sings like a sad heart
And joyously screams out its pain
Sounds that build high like a mountain
Or notes that fall ….. gently ……. like rain

“2112”

– Rush

A Really Strange Awareness



To be aware enough to wish

To not exist anymore

Not of suicidal desperation *

Rather aware enough

That you’ve done this before

Plus, I will do it / this again

And will repeat infinitely

Again and again and again

An exercise in futility

Knowing “the point

Of the journey

Is not to arrive” – Rush

Must be for journey’s sake

For the sake of experiences




Is it that elusive rainbow or

The next picturesque sunset

A glimpse of understanding

One of known knowing

That all of perceptible logic

Points in that direction of

Experiencing experiences




A photograph of a sunrise or sunset

Does not capture the breeze or heat

Felt at the time nor exactly the

Sentiment you wanted to cling to **

Only the light reflections off of the

Clouds and shadows that moved

The instant the camera clicked

Once on film, now in digital storage

Absolutely everything shifted

Before, during, and after the click

Waiting for a more perfect sunrise

Will only bring you to the setting sun

When will it be perfect to photograph

Never.

Dispose of the un-disposable camera

Capture the moment of the moment

Whilst in the moving moment and move on

To the next miraculous moment, then

Each moment will be as instantaneous

As it will last forever infinitely in infinity

Just not where you are at right now

Right now, or now, or now………

Ooopsie




*


“I just think that’s as interesting as hell. That’s probably the most interesting thing you can do with your life……. end it. I don’t think I could do that, though. Could you? God. I couldn’t commit suicide if my life depended on it.


But I understand it, you know. I think I do. I don’t wonder about it. I don’t wonder, well, why did he do that and what was going through his mind.


You know what I wonder, Where did he find the fucking time? Who’s got time to be committing suicide? Aren’t you busy? I got shit to do. Suicide would be way down on my list.”

– George Carlin


**


“Doesn’t anyone in this country just stop and look at things anymore? Sort of take them in, maybe even remember them?

Is that such a strange notion? Does experience have to be documented, brought home, and saved on the shelf? //

And do people really watch this shit? Are people’s lives so bankrupt, they sit at home looking at things they already did / (saw)?”

– George Carlin



Besides, how can anyone have time

For either, when everyone is pushing

A boulder up a sisyphean treadmill

Might as well keep going with a smile



Here is a mantra to help, maybe????


“Pardon me, while I
Plaster on a fake smile
And get through this shit
Just one more time.”

– Bill Hicks

Is It Any Wonder


People can not hear

What other people say

When they can not

Hear themselves speak

Me : guilty as charged

Which leads me to

Keeping my mouth shut

Review a thought and

Its content and context

Before releasing it into

The ether for consumption




Unfortunately……….

Unintentional catastrophizers

Let loose from their lips

Looney stuff, such as

“Spokane is burning to the ground.”



……….could you repeat that? Please?



“Spokane is burning to the ground.”


That is what I thought you said. Thanks.


Hmmmm, wow, that is horrible

Where did you receive that information?

“The news.” Okay,  that’s all I needed to hear.

As of this writing, less than one thousand structures have burned down. According to the all omniscient AI, there are between 75 and 85 thousand structures, which is wildly vague for an entity allegedly all-knowing.

Speaking of allegedly, my first question to AI was, “How many building structures are there in Spokane?” Its response was.

“There is no official total count available for all individual residential and commercial buildings in Spokane, Washington. Municipal tracking generally focuses on specific categories rather than a complete tally of every structure.”

So much for being all-knowing. Tsk, tsk. So I gave it a legal loophole and asked, “approximately.” It perked right up and gave me the ten thousand betwixt and between of 75 to 85 thousand.


I did my gazintas, splitting the difference at 80k. Took 913 divided by 80k = .0114 structures have burned.

That is hardly all of Spokane is burning down. Information like that is for the sensationally senseless. Humdrum daily lives need excitement, just to get through to the next day. Till the next conjured catastrophe captures the contents of their cranium.


“Explosions are fun! And hey, the closer the explosion is to your house, the more fun it is! Did you ever notice that? Sometimes you have the TV on and you’re working around the house, some guy comes on television and says “Six thousand people were killed in an explosion today”; you say “Where? Where?”.

He says, “… in Pakistan.” Say, “Oh, fuck Pakistan! Too far away to be any fun.” But if he says it happened in your hometown, you’ll say “Whoa, hot shit! Come on, Dave, let’s go look at the bodies! Let’s go look at the bodies!” I love bad news. I love bad news. Hey, the more bad news there is, the faster this system collapses. Fine by me. Fine by me. Don’t bother my ass. Don’t bother my ass none.”

– George Carlin


Maybe, maybe if the news was not so ostentatiously overwhelming to keep and attracting audiences and ad revenues, we could collectively combine our consciousness to find a better way to create more liveable livelihoods that are not contingent on constant chaos.



“What do I know
I am just a person
Who drives a truck,”


– Angelo Devlin