To be aware enough to wish
To not exist anymore
Not of suicidal desperation *
Rather aware enough
That you’ve done this before
Plus, I will do it / this again
And will repeat infinitely
Again and again and again
An exercise in futility
Knowing “the point
Of the journey
Is not to arrive” – Rush
Must be for journey’s sake
For the sake of experiences
Is it that elusive rainbow or
The next picturesque sunset
A glimpse of understanding
One of known knowing
That all of perceptible logic
Points in that direction of
Experiencing experiences
A photograph of a sunrise or sunset
Does not capture the breeze or heat
Felt at the time nor exactly the
Sentiment you wanted to cling to **
Only the light reflections off of the
Clouds and shadows that moved
The instant the camera clicked
Once on film, now in digital storage
Absolutely everything shifted
Before, during, and after the click
Waiting for a more perfect sunrise
Will only bring you to the setting sun
When will it be perfect to photograph
Never.
Dispose of the un-disposable camera
Capture the moment of the moment
Whilst in the moving moment and move on
To the next miraculous moment, then
Each moment will be as instantaneous
As it will last forever infinitely in infinity
Just not where you are at right now
Right now, or now, or now………
Ooopsie
*
“I just think that’s as interesting as hell. That’s probably the most interesting thing you can do with your life……. end it. I don’t think I could do that, though. Could you? God. I couldn’t commit suicide if my life depended on it.
But I understand it, you know. I think I do. I don’t wonder about it. I don’t wonder, well, why did he do that and what was going through his mind.
You know what I wonder, Where did he find the fucking time? Who’s got time to be committing suicide? Aren’t you busy? I got shit to do. Suicide would be way down on my list.”
– George Carlin
**
“Doesn’t anyone in this country just stop and look at things anymore? Sort of take them in, maybe even remember them?
Is that such a strange notion? Does experience have to be documented, brought home, and saved on the shelf? //
And do people really watch this shit? Are people’s lives so bankrupt, they sit at home looking at things they already did / (saw)?”
– George Carlin
Besides, how can anyone have time
For either, when everyone is pushing
A boulder up a sisyphean treadmill
Might as well keep going with a smile
Here is a mantra to help, maybe????
“Pardon me, while I
Plaster on a fake smile
And get through this shit
Just one more time.”
– Bill Hicks
People can not hear
What other people say
When they can not
Hear themselves speak
Me : guilty as charged
Which leads me to
Keeping my mouth shut
Review a thought and
Its content and context
Before releasing it into
The ether for consumption
Unfortunately……….
Unintentional catastrophizers
Let loose from their lips
Looney stuff, such as
“Spokane is burning to the ground.”
……….could you repeat that? Please?
“Spokane is burning to the ground.”
That is what I thought you said. Thanks.
Hmmmm, wow, that is horrible
Where did you receive that information?
“The news.” Okay, that’s all I needed to hear.
As of this writing, less than one thousand structures have burned down. According to the all omniscient AI, there are between 75 and 85 thousand structures, which is wildly vague for an entity allegedly all-knowing.
Speaking of allegedly, my first question to AI was, “How many building structures are there in Spokane?” Its response was.
“There is no official total count available for all individual residential and commercial buildings in Spokane, Washington. Municipal tracking generally focuses on specific categories rather than a complete tally of every structure.”
So much for being all-knowing. Tsk, tsk. So I gave it a legal loophole and asked, “approximately.” It perked right up and gave me the ten thousand betwixt and between of 75 to 85 thousand.
I did my gazintas, splitting the difference at 80k. Took 913 divided by 80k = .0114 structures have burned.
That is hardly all of Spokane is burning down. Information like that is for the sensationally senseless. Humdrum daily lives need excitement, just to get through to the next day. Till the next conjured catastrophe captures the contents of their cranium.
“Explosions are fun! And hey, the closer the explosion is to your house, the more fun it is! Did you ever notice that? Sometimes you have the TV on and you’re working around the house, some guy comes on television and says “Six thousand people were killed in an explosion today”; you say “Where? Where?”.
He says, “… in Pakistan.” Say, “Oh, fuck Pakistan! Too far away to be any fun.” But if he says it happened in your hometown, you’ll say “Whoa, hot shit! Come on, Dave, let’s go look at the bodies! Let’s go look at the bodies!” I love bad news. I love bad news. Hey, the more bad news there is, the faster this system collapses. Fine by me. Fine by me. Don’t bother my ass. Don’t bother my ass none.”
– George Carlin
Maybe, maybe if the news was not so ostentatiously overwhelming to keep and attracting audiences and ad revenues, we could collectively combine our consciousness to find a better way to create more liveable livelihoods that are not contingent on constant chaos.
“What do I know
I am just a person
Who drives a truck,”
– Angelo Devlin
Science ought to be
Self reflective enough by now
To stop explaining stuff
By an evidence-less theory
That everything came
From nothing
It is infinitely illogical
The same goes for that God fellow
Given credit for reshaping
What was already already here
“Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.”
Genesis 1 2
Doesn’t that make us / myself
Always, all ways a part of that
“Spirit of God”?????????
Yes ?, no?
May be yes, may be no?
I’m just asking for 8 billion fellow space travelers
Does it matter?
If matter doesn’t matter?
Or only exists if observed?
I have faith that i
(yes, the small i)
Have always existed
In one form or another
The current “I” existing
In the here and now
Is an ego in an autonomous
Anthropomorphic vehicle
With five base senses
To experience experiences and
Make these dopey observations
Also, to utilize available exergy *
Of me being a better me
In such an efficiently lazy way
So I do not have to do this shit again
* Exergy is the measure of the maximum useful work that can be extracted from a system as it reaches equilibrium with its environment.
Satiating the temporary ego just enough
To meld back with the Spirit of God / Word
That one emanated from to experience itself
And based on logic and reason… do it again
“Help me. Help me to find my true
Self without seeing the future
Save me, save me from torturing
Myself, even within my dreams
There’s got to be just more to it than this
Or tell me why, do we exist
I’d like to think that when I die
I’d get a chance another time
And to return and live again
Reincarnate, play the game
Again and again and again.”
– Iron Maiden
“Infinite Dreams”
If we are made from the dust of the stars
It would behoove us / myself to
Shine as bright as possible while
Providing light and warmth to our surroundings
“I am made from the dust of the stars
And the oceans flow in my veins. “
-Rush
“Presto”
A rant is a rant is a rant
A good rant keeps going
Have you seen the dopey depiction
Of how the “Big Bang” occurred
It always starts from left to right
Never bottom upward or vice-versa
Never right to left or any other angle
Why because it is only a theory
Science’s weakest argument is that
The universe is expanding
Based only on that detailed drawing
Yet it is so vast and never-ending
It is never presented that it is
Contracting in a different direction
Unlike the cosmos, this rant has to end
Will close it out with a Pete Holmes observation
“But it doesn’t matter if you’re an atheist. You’re a theist, I actually think we’re all kinda in the same boat. Really, I do. Some people think God created the universe. Some people think nothing created the universe. Which is the funniest guess? [audience laughing]
The “nothing” people make fun of the “God” people. They say, “God doesn’t exist.” I’m like, “Okay, maybe.” But you know what definitely doesn’t exist? Nothing. [audience/laughing]
That’s the defining characteristic of nothing, is that it doesn’t exist. So what are we talking about? Either you think it’s God, something you can’t see, touch, taste, photograph, and science can’t prove, or you think it’s nothing, something you can’t see, touch, taste, photograph, and science can’t prove.
But I think we can all agree if nothing, if your nothing, sometimes spontaneously erupts into everything, that’s a pretty goddamn magical fucking nothing, you guys. [audience/laughing]
And ask… ask the “nothing” people, “What happens when you die?” They’ll tell you, “Nothing. You go into nothing.” I’m like, “You mean you merge back with your creator?” [audience/laughing]
“That’s heaven, bitch.”
– Pete Holmes
In a time machine
Going in one direction
Always all ways forward
Though you can look back
You can not go back *
No matter how hard
One cranes their neck
What has happened happened
It is how the collective
Constructed the contraption
Of consciousness connection
There are no do-overs
Only reviews and redos
Or recycle and repeat
Preferably reflect and replace
Making every moment
A miraculous masterpiece
In the art of perfecting perfect
Which if self-awareness
Is the purpose of our being
Then that pursuit is the point
Somewhere between Ouroborus
And a Möbius strip Ad Infinitum
Though it need not be
A vicious circle or cycle if one
Learns from passed / past mistakes
“That is my best guess,
I have no clue…….”
– Angelo Devlin
*
“I Wanna Go Back”
“I was listening to the radio
I heard a song reminded me of long ago
Back then, I thought that things were never gonna change
It used to be that I never had to feel the pain
I know now that things will never be the same, no
I wanna go back
And do it all over
But I can’t go back I know
I wanna go back
Cause I’m feeling so much older
But I can’t go back I know”
– Eddie Money
Comes to me
Through my ears
Reality floats in
Through the
Auditory canal
Both externally
And internally *
*
(For a while now, I have been recognizing the miracle of being able to hear my voice without internal ears. At least none that I’ve ever read or “heard” about. You?
Then it dawned on me one morning that those internally non-existent ears are picking up words and sounds from a non-existent larynx.
Wow. Simply wow.
Even though I am always a doubter and questioner, I did very little research because all it took to prove my hypothesis was to read the following sentence. “I wonder if I spoke this to myself while holding my breath, if I could hear it. The answer is yes. Then I tried to speak it again outloud while holding my breath.
Nope, nothing, nada, probably just had a goofy look on my face, mouth agape, with absolutely no sound emanating forth. Cool, huh, come on, you know you tried it. Call me and tell me otherwise while holding your breath…………. Exactly. 😉
Without the visual cues
To distract my attention
I can absorb information
Ironically more objectively
Trusting my intuition
It’s probably because I am like
A Neanderthal caveman
Who survives on instinct
Not relying on CNN
Caveman Neanderthal News
“You ever watch CNN for longer than, say, 20 hours in one day?
I gotta cut that out. Watch CNN. It’s the most depressing thing you’ll ever see, man.
“WAR, FAMINE, DEATH, AIDS, HOMELESS, RECESSION, DEPRESSION, WAR, FAMINE, DEATH, AIDS.”
“WAR, FAMINE, DEATH, AIDS, HOMELESS, RECESSION, DEPRESSION, WAR, FAMINE, DEATH, AIDS.”
(Dinosaurs, pterodactyls, drought, monsoons, no fire, cooking utensil shortage, other cave dwellers. Aaaaaauggggg)
Then you look out your window – (crickets chirping) – where’s all this shit going on, man?
Ted Turner is making this shit up.”
– Bill Hicks
“Then you look out your window (windshield) while hearing “WAR, FAMINE, DEATH, AIDS, HOMELESS, RECESSION, DEPRESSION”.
I can see that essentially, none of that is occurring from my point of view. Bill Hicks was right, Ted Turner’s former corporation and the Murdoch family are making this shit up. Then everyone else goes along with some altered version because it increases viewership, therefore revenue. Duh.
People want to be afraid. It is practically the only stimulation they can feel in their humdrum daily repetitious lives. My life is just as humdrum and repetitious. However, I am stimulated by contemplations of the quantum mechanics of how the collective agreed to participate in such a ruse of fantasy and foreboding?
The linguistic fear is bleeding into other forms of blanket societal communication. Now, the weather channel is always issuing bleak widespread allegedly potential danger.
“Red Flag Warning” or “Red Fire Danger”
Oh shit, I better read that. Only to find out there are “thunderstorms” in “your” area, and lightning struck thirteen miles from your location.
Me: I hope it gets closer, I’m waiting for that big bolt of lightning to split the sky to maybe get a glimpse of an adjacent ancient dimension or future one.
As a kid, you knew to sit by the window in anticipation. As the sky got darker, the moisture increased, while the folks vaguely suggested not to do that. Which made it even more exciting.
Unfortunately, the social wording of the same events seems to be triggering the youth and probably many adults to be exhaustively alert, even though every spinning plate is already full of core concerns.
“Listen to your heart,
It knows right from wrong,
Let it guide you,
Listen to your heart,
It will make you strong,
Look inside of yourself and listen,
Listen to your heart.
You sure looked defeated,
When you came home tonight,
I know that you’re discouraged
And tired of the fight,
Sometimes, it gets so hard that you don’t know what to do,
If you close your eyes, the truth is there for you …
Listen to your heart,
It knows right from wrong,
Let it guide you,
Listen to your heart,
It will make you strong,
Look inside of yourself and listen,
Listen to your heart.
There are so many temptations in the crazy world today,
And there are so many people tryin’ to lead you astray,
Whenever you’re confused about all the things you see,
You can’t tell a friend from the enemy.
Listen to your heart,
It knows right from wrong,
Let it guide you,
Listen to your heart,
It will make you strong,
Look inside of yourself and listen,
Listen to your heart,
Listen to your heart,
It knows right from wrong,
Let it guide you,
Listen to your heart,
It will make you strong,
Look inside of yourself and listen,
Listen to your heart.
– Little River Band
“I just want to be
The antidote for the
Poisonous Kool-aid
People have ingested.”
– Angelo Devlin
For a clearer understanding
That nothing is created
It merely changes shape
Therefore, the more
Appropriate word to use is
In my perception, is adaptation
“It doesn’t mean there is no God.”
– Joe Rogan
However, it eliminates the need
To locate the creator’s creator
But that is just me
Being efficiently lazy
It also skips the middleman
To accept, that all is God / Word
Word/s has / have always existed
How you mastermind
The content and context
Is entirely up to you
Even atheists can not argue
That Word / words do not exist
The dictionary is their Bible
“The Word already existed.
The Word was with God,
And the Word was God.”
John 1:1
Let’s call it an uncreated – creator
“Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.”
Genesis 1 2
Seeing as how water is largely used as both a
Symbol for consciousness and unconsciousness
The printed “proof” is that it is already there
Perhaps then, God / Word is that
Which we’ve adapted from
To experience itself / ourselves
“All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves.”
– Bill Hicks
Making everything from the Spirit of Word
Intention
Thought
Life
Death
Success
Failure
Family
Geography
Race
Gender
Language
Beliefs
What else are we going to do for infinite eternity?
Sit around and make shit up for stuff
We can not possibly understand
So our fragile ego can temporarily
Feel good about itself………
Damn the ego, id, and superego
“I think we’re part of a greater wisdom than we’ll ever understand, a higher order, call it what you want. You know what I call it? The Big Electron.
The Big Electron. Woooohhhh, woooohhhh, woooohhhh. It doesn’t punish, it doesn’t reward, it doesn’t judge at all. It just is, and so are we, for a little while.”
– George Carlin
How divine it must be
By faith and will that
You and I exist to read this
For nothing other than
To have an experience
Of contemplations always
A half step away from
Knowing and understanding
The whole source
Until we choose by
Our alleged death
Returning to Word
Having never been separated
From Word in the first or any place
“We are the imagination of ourselves.”
– Bill Hicks
“That is creative,”
– Angelo Devlin
We are one
With the whole
Likewise
The whole is
One within us
We are the star
A trillion
Galaxies away
Exploding furiously
Lending its remnants to
Nearby planets and stars
As well as the
Homeless drug addict
Surviving on the street
Or the billionaire in one
Of their many mansions
The elephant, still being
Killed for their ivory tusks
The plastic in the
Overfished oceans
We are the hope and despair
In the perceived future
And the unobtainable past
We have unbelievable faith
That we will continue on to
Exist in some form or another
While behaving as if we will
Kick the bucket by nightfall
Longing desperately for change
Holding on to horrible habits
Simultaneously
“I am not the voice
For the voiceless
I am the voice
For the deaf
Those who do not
Need to hear what I say. “
– Angelo Devlin
Word is the source
For all of the words
Word is the art
In the artist
Word is the paint
In the painter
Word is the business
In the business owner
Word is the truck
In the truck driver
Word is the dance
In the dancer
Word is the me
In all meanings
Word is the I
In the individual
Word is the perception
In the perceived separation
So that the I (you and me)
Can understand Word
Always evolving as a whole
Never beginning
Never ending
If infinity expands
Into the infinite
Isn’t it already infinite ?
“The Word already existed.
The Word was with God, and the Word was God.”
John 1:1
Word is the infinite
In infinity mirrors
Word is the wasted
In wasted years
“Wasted Years”
– Iron Maiden
“From the coast of gold across the seven seas
I’m travellin’ on far and wide
But now it seems
I’m just a stranger to myself
And all the things I sometimes do
It isn’t me but someone else
I close my eyes, and think of home
Another city goes by in the night
Ain’t it funny how it is
You never miss it ’til it’s gone away
And my heart is lying there
And will be ’til my dying day
So understand
Don’t waste your time always searching for those wasted years
Face up… make your stand
And realise you’re living in the golden years
Too much time on my hands, I got you on my mind
Can’t ease this pain so easily
When you can’t find the words to say
It’s hard to make it through another day
And it makes me wanna cry
And throw my hands up to the sky
So understand
Don’t waste your time always searching for those wasted years
Face up… make your stand
And realise you’re living in the golden years”
– Iron Maiden
With just enough room
For more perfection
Like the forever half-space
Between Michelangelo’s
Hand of man to hand of God
The best of the best
Can always get better
With an infinite amount
Of time to be more perfect
Infinity divided by two
Equals infinity
Therefore, you have all
Of non-existent time
To be even more perfect
Especially when you are……
“Caught Somewhere In Time”
“If you had the time to lose
An open mind and time to choose
Would you care to take a look
Or can you read me like a book?
Time is always on my side
Time is always on my side
Can I tempt you, come with me
Be Devil may care, fulfill your dream
If I said I’d take you there
Would you go, would you be scared?
Time is always on my side
Time is always on my side
Don’t be afraid, you’re safe with me
Safe as any soul can be honestly
Just let yourself go
Caught somewhere in time
Caught somewhere in time”
– Iron Maiden
Practice makes perfect
“1 a. being entirely without fault or defect: FLAWLESS”
– M-W.COM
Is someone somewhere still trying to build a better mouse trap?
According to AI….
Yes, the quest to build a better mousetrap is still very active. With over 4,400 patents—making it the most frequently invented device in U.S. history—the U.S. Patent Office still receives dozens of applications each year
“If a man write a better book, preach a better sermon, or make a better mouse-trap than his neighbor, tho’ he build his house in the woods, the world will make a beaten path to his door.”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
What if it was you that
Assembled your self
Yourself
Everything that made you
And constantly does
Comes from what
Is already here
In infinite infinity
Challenging the notion
That you or anything else
Was created
Like a magician pulling
A dove out of thin air or
A rabbit out of the hat
The dove and the rabbit
By concealment
Are already there
So is everything else
Therefore, you get
What you expect by
Faith and anticipation
Like that one spermatizoa
Determined to get to the egg
Nothing assembles from scratch
Which makes you already a part
Of everything that is infinitely here
Dr. Wayne Dyer described it as
Being a microscopic dot
That has neither beginning or end
Like the universe and infinity itself
Making you the pilot of the
Autonomous anthropomorphic
Vehicle you chose from the
Divine parental dealership
Every outcome deconstructed
Would seem to then suggest
That it came about by faith
By assembling the you, you are
On the world’s stage, done with mirrors
“All the world’s indeed a stage
And we are merely players
Performers and portrayers
Each another’s audience
Outside the gilded cage, “
“Limelight”
– Rush
“We have assembled inside,
This ancient and insane theater
To propagate our lust for life,
And flee the swarming
Wisdom of the streets.
Ooh great creator (assembler) of being
Grant us one more hour,
To perform our art
And perfect our lives.”
“Ghost Song”
– Jim Morrison
Looking at the world through a windshield. 