Looking at the world through a windshield.

I was paranoid

It might be comforting

To imagine that

Someone or anything

Was out to get me

Clearly

That is not happening

Everyone leaves me

To my own devices

Or perhaps …vices or

Just this device that

Is used to give

My fingers free rein

To transfer thoughts

From skull to screen

For no purpose that

I can think of, save some

Temporary entertainment

Mine definitely

Yours, hopefully


The following was being developed for a separate post, but it seemed to fit here, so this is where I put it,


Whilst driving down a desert highway, I saw the following four signs, in between a pasture fence and the road. So, to my best perception, it was on public land. They were low to the ground, yet large enough to read. Hand painted and homemade. They must have been placed there recently, for they were not weather worn or faded. It read as follows…



DEEP


STATE


YOU’RE IN



PRISON



Without commas or sponsorship, I was left to my own thinking to decipher for miles, its meaning. Is the Deep State in prison? Am I in prison, in the Deep State? If I am in prison and I get to drive down the highway, enjoying the view and thinking, how might I extend my incarceration? Where are the wardens, fences, and guard towers? Will good or bad driving keep me out here?


A few miles down the road, it occurred to me that the person who painted those signs, probably a dude, is suffering from several delusions. That somehow warning others of his self-imposed sentence will free him from his shackles.



“If I could wave my magic wand
I’d set everybody free.”

“Presto”

– Rush



Free to be aware that, as an anthropomorphic form, due to a conglomeration of temporary moving molecules, has some sort of consciousness. With at least five primary senses to subjectively sense the world around me, in order for it to barely make some sort of vague sense.

Thankfully, perhaps due to this most likely incorrect perception, I may be aware that my actions contribute to the concept of a “Deep State”, that I could live in fear of. Or, just be aware that I am also its co-creator * and go about my day. Enjoying as best I can each moment that manifests after the last moment moves on.


“Deep State :

An alleged secret network of especially non-elected government officials and sometimes private entities (as in the financial services and defense industries) operating extra legally to influence and enact government policy”

– m-w.com



“George Carlin famously argued that a formal, secret conspiracy (or a “deep state” in the modern vernacular) is unnecessary to control society because the interests of the powerful already align.

His analysis, particularly in Life Is Worth Losing (2005), proposed that the real owners—wealthy business interests—don’t need to meet in backrooms because they went to the same universities, sit on the same boards, and belong to the same country clubs.

Key Aspects of the “Convergence of Interests” Argument:

• No Meetings Required: “They don’t need to call a meeting. They know what’s good for them and they’re getting it. “

• The Illusion of Choice: Carlin argued that the public is given the illusion of choice in politics and consumer goods, while the actual power structure is fixed.

• The “Big Club”: He famously claimed, “It’s a big club, and you ain’t in it,” describing the ruling elite as owners who control the media, Congress, and the courts.

• Converging Interests: The system works because all these individuals “have like interests,” allowing them to move in the same direction without a conspiratorial plot.


Carlin’s perspective was that the system is not a secret, but rather “in your face,” relying on the public being too distracted or “asleep” to recognize the exploitation.”

– AI



* co-creator assumes taking responsibility for the mess most people like to point their fingers at and blame. When it is the collective us, that creates it.


Mostly based on the greedy relentless narcissistic desire of….

I WANT IT. NOW.

(Big burger corporations do not destroy rainforests, because they can. Rainforests are destroyed because the collective agrees to pay them to do it as the populace wants a slaughtered cow on a bun and they want it fast, along with some chemically altered potatoes vaguely representing a french fry loaded with salt, to be washed down the gullet into the overworking gut, by some other unhealthy sugary or sacharin soda.)

I want happiness now. Takes on so many forms. The primary ones being food, fuel, vanity, and entertainment.

Hungry ? There are so many apps. You can sit on your couch and click away, then shortly, magically, food appears. Not quite instantly, but you know “they” are working on it.

Overweight ? There is a pill, or a shot, or surgery that will correct that. Not quite instantly, but you know “they” are working on it.

Ugly ? Or at least, feel you are ugly because the mass marketers have easily found a myriad of malignant ways to make you think that. All so “they” can sell you lotions, potions, creams, foot, face, skin, hair, teeth, nails. Covering every surface of the you, that is not you, but rather the you that the external world sees. Even the “you,” you see in the mirror.

Not the ghost in the machine. That is the real you. The spirit that intrinsically knows its own divine, connected with all of infinity nature. That uniquely understands that …..

“Life down here is just a strange illusion.”

“Hallowed Be Thy Name”

– Iron Maiden


“We’re all the same…

So if you think your life is complete confusion
Because your neighbors got it made

Just remember that it’s a Grand illusion
And deep inside, we’re all the same.
We’re all the same…”

” The Grand Illusion”

– Styx


Bored ? Need to be across the country, you can be anywhere in usually five to eight hours, all you have to do is remove your shoes, walk through a magno-something-or-other, place yourself in a faux torture position, while the wand waving guards allow you through.


I only wish I could have made this shorter to convey the same message if there even is one here.



“Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. “

– Yoda


“The Phantom Menace”

Everything that you

Think you know

Will dissipate and

Dissappear into the ether

The same goes for everything

That you believe you believe

Or think that you believe

Eventually, it will not be what

It is right now in this moment




So ask yourself questions

What, who, and when am I

Clinging to these perceptions

Also, how, and why?

The most significant being



WHY?




Does whatever (X)

Have meaning now?

When eventually it won’t

Because eventually

“You” won’t be here

At least not in the form

That holds your

Individual consciousness

That at this moment

Deciphers meaning

If you choose to assign it

What you want it to “mean”




No objective perspective

Will concur collectively

Save some reassuring

Glad-handing of some sort




Is “reality” reality or

The “dreams” of reality “reality”

Perhaps reality is just a dream



Just woke up from a “dream”

That seemed “real”

Who is to say it was or wasn’t

Either way, it resolved

An “awake” issue that

Needed to be solved




Eventually making

Similar problems go away

So, eventually, I can meld

Back as one with the

Collective consciousness

Until such non-existent time

I choose another athropomorphic

Subjective perspective to have

Experiences I decide to experience




“Infinite Dreams”

“Infinite dreams, I can’t deny them
Infinity is hard to comprehend
I couldn’t hear those screams
Even in my wildest dreams

Suffocation waking in a sweat
Scared to fall asleep again
In case the dream begins again

Someone chasing, I can not move
Standing rigid, a nightmare’s statue
What a dream when will it end
And will I transcend?

Restless sleep the minds in turmoil
One nightmare ends another fertile
It’s getting to me so scared to sleep
But scared to wake now, in too deep.

Even though it’s reached new heights
I’d rather like the restless nights
It makes me wonder, it makes me think
There’s more to this. I’m on the brink

It’s not the fear of what’s beyond
It’s just that I might not respond
I have an interest, almost craving
But would I like to get too far in?

Can’t all be coincidence
Too many things are evident
You tell me you’re an unbeliever
Spiritualists? Well, me, I’m neither

Wouldn’t you like to know
The truth?
Oh, what’s out there to have the proof

And find out just which side
You’re on
Where would you end in Heaven or
In Hell?

Help me. Help me to find my true
Self without seeing the future
Save me, save me from torturing
Myself, even within my dreams

There’s got to be just more to it than this
Or tell me why do we exist
I’d like to think that when I die
I’d get a chance another time

And to return and live again
Reincarnate, play the game
Again and again and again.”


– Iron Maiden




Word bless Iron Maiden for

Iron Maiden’s words have blessed me





“The phantoms
Of our imagination
Are as real as the
Beliefs in our brain”


– Angelo Devlin

I love word(s)

I love infinity

For WORD

Gives us infinity

Allowing us to

Grapple with

The incongruity of

Perceived reality



Knock on wood

The door seems

Solid as wood

But we know

It is, and it is not

Since even vague

Atomic awareness

Recalls how each

Atom ⚛️ is working

Protons and neutrons

Surrounded by

An electron cloud

Made up of……get this

Mostly empty space



And unlike the

Made up Matrix

That we are batteries

To power the machine

That controls us



Me, you, and a

Dog named boo

– Lobos

Along with doors

Batteries and machines

Thoughts and empty space



Are made up of a

A conglomeration of

Cooperating atoms

Called consciousness

In order to experience

“Reality” for the sake

Of having experiences



Not to learn lessons

Or burn through Karma

Right repulsive wrongs

Relive past lives or

Pay a devilish debt

Saving your soul




Merely have experiences

Infinitely forever since there

Was no impractical start

Likewise impossible finish

Since neither fit in infinity

Strangely, there is no room

For such non sense, nonsense




“Don’t fight the Matrix,

Experience it.”

– Angelo Devlin

Not a typo



Merely a contemplation

Of choosing to decide a far

From Sophie’s choice decision

To experience the weather

As it is in the moment

Or to experience the weather

As it is allegedly forecast

Which is a gamble at best

Either way, both are illusions

The choice then becomes

To live in the forecast by

Spending attention on that

Or living in the actual moments

The “weather” is occurring



“I’ve had a lot of worries in my life,
most of which never happened.”

– Mark Twain



Whether driving down the road

Or living life as it occurs

It is best to be prepared for

The actual conditions and

Circumstances that arise



Better than hopeful projections

Or assuming everything will

Go horribly wrong and proceed

From vague hypotheses of

What may happen as opposed

To what happens in each

Subsequent moments

Played out in “real” time



The inspiration for this…..



I watched a group of drivers

Facing a “Winter weather advisory” *

(It may snow and be very windy)

It was interesting to watch them

Live in the moment and speak of

How they might react to something

That was occurring in their heads

“Guaranteeing” what will happen

If, then, what, maybe of possibilities

Due to figments of wild imaginations



Did I have concerns, of course

However, their projected plight

Of maybe……. doom and gloom

Tipped over trucks, lost jobs

Fatherless families, dead dads

Helped guide me to live / be

In the moment that was happening

In the now, in a warm dispatch office

Instead of gazing into a nonexistent


“Crystal Ball”


“I wonder what tomorrow has in mind for me
Or am I even in its mind at all
Perhaps I’ll get a chance to look ahead and see
Soon as I find myself a crystal ball
Soon as I find myself a crystal ball, “


– Styx



The weather experience

As woefully expected

Never came to fruition



“Human sacrifice!

Dogs and cats living together!

Mass hysteria!”


–  Bill Murray as Dr. Peter Venkman

“Ghostbusters”



Could we have run? Probably

Did layers of management

Make the right decision? Probably

The interesting parts were the

Multitudes of experiences experienced

Without having any actual experience

Save that so few seemed to be

Living in the moment of now



* “Winter weather advisory” used to be

Tomorrow’s forecast

Simple, honest, direct language

(Even with all the best technology

It winds up being their best guess)

Unfortunately, the word advisory

Portends the illusion of authority



It still is coming from

The same weatherman

Ooops, “Weather-person”

Ooops, meteorologist

Or….teleprompter reader



“People like to sound important; weathermen on television talk about “shower activity…” sounds more important than “showers”.

I even heard one guy on CNN talk about “a rain event.” Swear to God,” he said “Louisiana is expecting a rain event.” I thought “holy shit, I hope I can get tickets to that!”


… “Emergency situation…” News people like to say “police have responded to an emergency situation.” No, they haven’t. They’ve responded to an emergency.

We know it’s a situation… Everything is a situation!”


– George Carlin



And lately, since people are programmed

To trust authority, regardless of its skills

They surrender their intuition and gut instinct

Blindly away from their internal knowing of

Any outcome or an experience to be had / have

Backing it up with fearful projections to

Scare the shit out of themselves of

What is not actually happening in the first place



“The phantoms
Of our imagination
Are as real as the
Beliefs in our brain”


– Angelo Devlin