I Know Now

What I did not know then

So I know better

Except……then….

Has always been now

Can only be……now

Habits are hard to break

Some things feel good

Good food tastes great

A cold beer is refreshing

Wine goes well with steak

Coffee is a stimulant

Depressingly a diuretic

Hindsight is what you make it

New paradigms are built

On top of old archetypes

Indoctrinations are as hard

As concrete foundations

It is what my faltering

Mental house is built on

That does not exist anyway

Save my perceptions

Of what is real and

What is a reality

I believe I experience

That allows me to know better

Yet also allows me to

Be too lazy to change

Happy New Year

Resolutions be damned

Revolutions are more my style

On an axis around the sun

Through the cosmos

Are but a few things

I know now




“Where would you rather be?
Anywhere but here
When will the time be right?
Anytime but now

On the edge of sleep,
I was drifting for half the night
Anxious and restless,
Pressed down by the darkness
Bound up and wound up so tight
So many decisions, a million revisions
Caught between darkness and light

Wilderness of mirrors
World of polished steel
Gears and iron chains
Turn the grinding wheel
I run between the shadows
Some are phantoms, some are real

Where would you rather be?
Anywhere but here
When will the time be right?
Anytime but now
The doubt and the fear
I know would all disappear
Anywhere but here

On the edge of sleep,
I heard voices behind the door
The known and the nameless,
Familiar and faceless
My angels and my demons at war
Which one will lose
Depends on what I choose
Or maybe which voice I ignore

Wilderness of mirrors
Streets of cold desire
My precious sense of honor
Just a shield of rusty wire
I hold against the chaos
And the cross of holy fire

Wilderness of mirrors
So easy to deceive
My precious sense of rightness
Is sometimes so naive
So that which I imagine
Is that which I believe

On the edge of sleep,
I awoke to a sun so bright
Rested and fearless,
Cheered by your nearness
I knew which direction was right
The case had been tried by the jury inside
The choice between darkness and light”

“Doubt Agent”

– Rush