Who am I?

Based on layers of perception

I am.

I  ????

Am ???

I,  let’s start with that. What is I ?

This is really tough to examine with one eye on a telescope and the other on a microscope.

Being  (I assume ) in the middle  (50) optimistically.

I

: the person who is speaking or writing.

I’ve read or heard that every cell in your body is replaced every 7 to 11 years.

Some cells get replaced faster than others. skin, hair, digestive. Those go much quicker than bones and teeth.

Still, there is a complete replacement of every cell..

I have also heard it be said,  that if you are shown an old photo, with you in it , and you are asked who it is, you will inadvertently  (or subconsciously)  point to where your heart is and declare, “that’s me”.

“Some guy handed me a picture and said, “Here is a picture of me when I was younger”….”Every picture of you,  is when you were younger”….

Mitch Hedberg

.
No one,  will point to their skull, and identify themselves as their brain. (Which is the biological control center over the arms and fingers to make that gesture in the first place. ) hmmm.

So where is the I,  if you are past the age of 12, there is nothing that you are now that is a part of your being that was here 11 years ago. ?

“There’s a time to live and a time to die. But isn’t it strange,  that as soon as you’re born you’re dying.”

Steve Harris “The Clairvoyant”
Iron Maiden

Back to the research,…

This really doesn’t go anywhere,  guess I’m just trying to figure out who I am…

Am I the “I”, I see in the mirror?  Can’t be,  that I is two dimensional and as hard as glass. Not to mention,  everything is backwards.

Whatever that “I” is, is also the outcome of the balance of nature and nurture, geography and language. Beliefs, discovered or indoctrinated.

There is irony for you,  “indoctrinated beliefs”.  That essentially means the “I” is “taught”,  how to “feel”.

Hmmm, the original “I” is gone after 11 years.  Leaving whatever is left,  to cling to (or perhaps not) what it has been instructed to “feel”.  Which is constantly decaying and regenerating.

If it’s being removed and replaced, it must weigh something, must have substance.  Is it gone in outer space, where the “I” would, without gravity be weightless?

.
With that.

am

present 1st singular of be

be

—used to describe the qualities of a person or thing

Oh shit, here we go again.
Apparently,  all the dictionaries and definitions are not going to describe to me, who I am.

I  am confused.