Every Choice

Is a Sophie’s Choice

Just varying in degrees

From life or death

With all its subsequent consequences

Suicide, murder, genocide, abortion

Or

Chocolate or vanilla ice cream

With all its subsequent consequences

Sugar free, fat free, dairy free, taste free

Whether or not to use commas

Or structure this in “real” sentences



“[Chorus:]

You can choose a ready guide
In some celestial voice
If you choose not to decide,
You still have made a choice

You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill

I will choose a path that’s clear
I will choose freewill”

– Rush

While clipping and pasting
The above lyrics from Rush’s song

“Freewill”

I chose to leave in the word [Chorus:]
Because that was my choice

Though I could later edit it
None being the wiser…..or myself

Also in my perception
Needs to be repeated

“You can choose a ready guide
In some celestial voice
If you choose not to decide,
You still have made a choice

You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill

I will choose a path that’s clear
I will choose freewill”


Any one’s life
At any moment
Is a culmination of choices
Made prior as a projection
Of future choices
Based on the flow chart
Breakdown of
If then
Then
Go to
This projection
Of plausible outcomes

Most not as severe as Sophie’s Choice though

Are choices
The best
Or correct

Impossible to know
Because technically
There are no do-overs

There might be some resets
But only after that outcome
Is disliked or tested
And found unworthy

Again, none as final as Sophie’s

Or move on to new choices
Always perceived as
Better choices
All ways always

Impossible to know
Because technically
There are no do-overs

Although there may be

Just not at the moment
Of the choice
In the moment

Because………..

“We only have this moment”

– Bill Hicks

Here is another decision dilemma

Often I post lyrics and
Comedian’s “bits”
Because
Knowing my ability to communicate
Is sketchy at best

Utilize their words to clarity points
Much better than I ever could
That, and both are constantly
Rattling around in my head
Ready to pop out
Surfaced with word triggers
Like bullets in a loaded chamber

The decision dilemma is this
Amongst a myriad of others

In the Iron Maiden song
“An Educated Fool”

The line

“I want to leave my life on my own”

Sounds like

I want to (live) my life on my own

Either way both make sense
Just contextually
Words and worlds apart

One suicidal
The other positive

Searching lyrics both come up
Shazam comes up with leave
Which at some point is
A decision somebody made
To leave it as leave
Living with that choice

Regardless how it sounds
Heard or perceived

Can not write it out as lieve or leive
Or live or leave
What am I supposed to do
Call Steve Harris and ask him
One of the credited lyricists

What if the connection is bad
And I hear
Lieve
Do I bother him more
To send it as an email
Or write it in a letter
What if I can not
Read his handwriting
Do I call him again……..

Decisions decisions decisions


“I am an educated fool
So I don’t know what it is I’m supposed to do
About this awkward situation
That’s been forced down right upon me

As I’m walking down into
On my own into the Valley of life
Got a lifetime of experience
Yeah I’ve got so much to give

Open the page at chapter one
Could this just be that life’s just begun
Forever within your darker thoughts
Reflecting on everything you’ve been taught

Never felt this way before
Seems that somebody’s just opened the door
To the book of life or is it death
Is there ever anyway out

Someone’s looking down on me
To the very inner core of my soul
They won’t tell me what they see
But I really want to know

I want to leave my life on my own
I want to lift the unturned stone
I want to walk right into the fire
I want to live out all my desires
I want to go and see the fire burn
I want to see and feel my world turn
I want to know what more there’s to learn
I want to pass the point of no return

Do you really wanna be
Just another one statistic or feel
That you really should aspire
That you really do deserve more

Do you ever really feel
That you have so much potential inside
What you really have to give
Could be realised so much more

I want to leave my life on my own
I want to lift the unturned stone
I want to walk right into the fire
I want to live out all my desires
I want to go and see the fire burn
I want to see and feel my world turn
I want to know what more there’s to learn
I want to pass the point of no return

Time will flow
And I will follow
Time will go
But I will follow

Time will flow
And I will follow
Time will go
But I will follow

I want to feel what life’s like respond
I want to meet my father beyond
I want to walk right into the light
I want to feel no fear but delight

I want to leave my life on my own
I want to lift the unturned stone
I want to walk right into the fire
I want to live out all my desires

Time will flow
And I will follow
Time will go
But I will follow

Time will flow
And I will follow
Time will go
But I will follow

Time will flow
And I will follow
Time will go
But I will follow

The “Educated Fool”

– Iron Maiden

Shit.

Listening to it over and again
The first sounds like leave
The repeat sounds like live.

Shit.

This one is less ambiguous
Still, rattling around in my head

“I Live My Way”

Sometimes when I feel the anger 
Sometimes when I’m all alone 
Sometimes when I feel surrounded 
Like all the doors are closed 

I feel like I’ve been a prisoner 
I feel like I’ve been a tool 
Let people try to judge me 
When they’re not in my shoes

I’ve lived on my knees 
Trying to please 
It’s time to change

Some people are only happy 
When they can watch you fail 
And to them every day is 
Another coffin nail 
I think that I’ve found the answer 
I think that at last I know 
We’ve only got one lifetime 
I’ll make my life my own

I’ve lived on my knees 
Trying to please 
It’s time to change 
To live my own way 

I live my way 
Living for today 
Don’t care what they say

– “Iron Maiden”

But what does it all mean
No two people
Hear the same lyrics
In the same way

According to each
Their own context and perception
In the content of their experience

WHEW

Melted snowflakes are all the same


“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”

“Or hearing aids”

– Angelo Devlin

Hearing aids

So far the choice
Is not to get them
For fear it will amplify
The voices in my head
That give me
Sophie’s choices