Dwell 101

Doubleplusungood.

I have dwelled too long in Room 101 strapped in a dual chamber cage, secured comfortably over my noggin.

Time to open the cages.

“You asked me once,” said O’Brien, “what was in Room 101. I told you that you knew the answer already. Everyone knows it. The thing that is in Room 101 is the worst thing in the world.” 

“1984”

– George Orwell

 

In Winston Smith’s case it is rats.

“The cage was nearer; it was closing in. Winston heard a succession of shrill cries which appeared to be occurring in the air above his head.

But he fought furiously against his panic. To think, to think, even with a split second left – to think was the only hope.

Suddenly the foul musty odor of the brutes struck his nostrils. There was a violent convulsion of nausea inside him, and he almost lost consciousness.

Everything had gone black. For an instant he was insane, a screaming animal. Yet he came out of the blackness clutching an idea.

There was one and only one way to save himself. He must interpose another human being, the body of another human being, between himself and the rats.”

“1984”

– George Orwell

 

It is not the yellow eyed, ravenously starving foul stenched rats with razor sharp teeth that I fear.

The thing I fear most, is the fear of love and acceptance.

Knowing that, should the “thought” police, ever need to torture me, there would be no harmful betrayal done to my “Julia”.

Suddenly the friendly warm emotion entered his awareness of being loved and accepted. There was a violent convulsion of nausea inside him, and he almost lost consciousness.

“Do it to Julia! Do it to Julia! Not me! Julia! I don’t care what you do to her”

“1984”

– George Orwell

Imagine that the betrayal of “torturing” the one you love, with love and acceptance. Simply because you do not want it to happen to you.

“Room 101, The worst thing in the world”

“1984”

– George Orwell