“99% of my life I was lied to ”
EMINEM
From “My name is”
Part 2
The last poem left something missing
Sounded like my parents I was dissing
Perhaps some negative reminiscing
Inspired by Eminem line, fit I was hissing
Neither in this, their ass, will be kissing
As the meme goes, did best they could
Learned from that, I knew that I would
Ill prepared does no one any good
Try building a house w/o tools or wood
Am here now so why should I brood
Moving so slow, feels like stagnation
Deciphering truth, use my imagination
What had I done in my last incarnation
Not so good, yet not quite damnation
Make it better, for the next reincarnation
Reflecting back will give any one pause
Consider the manipulation of Santa Claus
Don’t even blame them, for society’s flaws
Still coerced on kids, on my soul it gnaws
Hard to escape those consumptive jaws
Saw a bad thing, picture it now, as then
At the time, was told it did not happen
If acknowledged may have forgotten
A characteristic repeated quite often
Trust should’ve been ripe, it was rotten
Broke a ceramic, prepared for the scorn
Twas irreplaceable shouldn’t been born
Don’t take it out on me if you’re forlorn
Back of my mind forever will adorn
Till clearing it out here, it is now shorn
Don’t impregnate, don’t be a dummy
If they do, it’s for your perceived money
No chance they, will just think I’m funny
A horrible thing to say, so very crummy
Still rears its ugliness on my honey
Even though I know she truly loves me
One thing I’m learning it’s not too late
Sequencing words new ways to create
Stick around, end no longer contemplate
Find myself manifesting a different fate
One, put in print so others may relate
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A former president has been tweeting the current one from beyond the grave.
“When the President does it, that means it’s not illegal.”
@RealDeadNixon
“If you can’t lie, you’ll never go anywhere”
@RealDeadNixon
Try this one. “I was not lying. I said things that later on, seemed to be untrue.”
@RealDeadNixon
“I would not like to be a Russian leader. They never know when they’re being taped.” Oops
@RealDeadNixon
“I urge the Congress to join me in mounting a major new effort to replace the discredited president.”
@RealDeadNixon
Special thanks to Thoughtco.com
As far as I know @RealDeadNixon is fictitious, I don’t even know how to Twitter.
Just going for laughs.
Administration Exit Song
“Liar” – Rollins Band
you think you’re gonna to live your life alone
in darkness
and seclusion
yeah I know
you’ve been out there
tried to mix with those animals
and it just left you full of humiliated confusion
so you stagger back home
and wait for nothing
but the solitary refinement of your room spits you back out onto the street
and now you’re desperate
and in need of human contact
and then
you meet me
and you whole world changes
because everything I say is everything you’ve ever wanted to hear
so you drop all your defenses and you drop all your fears
and you trust me completely
I’m perfect
in every way
cause I make you feel so strong and so powerful inside
you feel so lucky
but your ego obscures reality
and you never bother to wonder why
things are going so well
you want to know why?
cause I’m a liar
yeah I’m a liar
I’ll tear your mind out
I’ll burn your soul
I’ll turn you into me
I’ll turn you into me
cause I’m a liar, a liar
a liar, a liar
I’ll hide behind a smile
and understanding eyes
and I’ll tell you things that you already know
so you can say
I really identify with you, so much
and all the time that you’re needing me
is just the time that I’m bleeding you
don’t you get it yet?
I’ll come to you like an affliction
and I’ll leave you like an addiction
you’ll never forget me
you want to know why?
cause I’m a liar
yeah I’m a liar
I’ll rip your mind out
I’ll burn your soul
I’ll turn you into me
I’ll turn you into me
cause I’m a liar, a liar
liar, liar, liar, liar
I don’t know why I feel the need to lie
and cause you so much pain
maybe it’s something inside
maybe it’s something I can’t explain
cause all I do
is mess you up and lie to you
I’m a liar
oh, I am a liar
if you’ll give me one more chance
I swear that I will never lie to you again
because now I see the destructive power of a lie
they’re stronger than truth
I can’t believe I ever hurt you
I swear
I will never to you lie again, please
just give me one more chance
I will never lie to you again
I swear
that I will never tell a lie
I will never tell a lie
no, no
ha ha ha ha ha hah haa haa haa haaa
sucker
sucker!
oh, sucker
I am a liar
yeah, I am a liar
yeah I like it
I feel good
ohh I am a liar
yeah
I lie
I lie
I lie
oh, I lie
oh I lie
I lie
yeah
ohhh I’m a liar
I lie
yeah
I like it
I feel good
I’ll lie again
and again
I’ll lie again and again
and I’ll keep lying
I promise
As this prolonged catastrophe unfolds, the brilliant writers of “House of Cards” and “Scandal” are sharpening their pencils and copiously taking notes.
Trying to surpass the absolutely compelling entertainment emanating from 1600 Pennsylvania Ave.
The left eye watching FOX, the right eye watching MSNBC. The third eye desperately trying to intuit WTF is going on.
If Lady Justice is blind, then the Lord of Truth is a deaf, dumb, blind, wheelchair bound quadriplegic that is very much in danger of being beheaded.
The rule of law apparently does not apply to the rulers of law.
How much longer till it is broadcast / reported that Russia (Eastasia) has always been our (Oceania’s) ally. To war with Eurasia or is that our ally?
After all even JFK utilized “back” channel access to Nikita Khrushchev to prevent mutually assured destruction.
The corrupt criminal collusion occurring currently seems only to be helping a select few mutually agreed deception.
One of whom probably should have heeded Howard Stern’s advice and not run into all the aggravation. Listening to his yes men instead encouraged the fragile ego that he could be president.
Where will that fragile ego be when he stands in front of a mirror to see a billionaire in handcuffs?
Till then, will we start hoarding chocolate, hanging on to razor blades, preparing to barter sugar for coffee. Then coffee for cigarettes, while slugging down the endless gulp of Victory Gin to be anesthetized of this trumped up reality?
I used to be paranoid, till I realized absolutely nobody nowhere was out to get me. It is just that I have been sharpening my Orwellian discernment capabilities for three decades.
Relevant? Throwaway
If you promise to drain the swamp and you do, however, you fill it back up with excrement and toxins, have you really fulfilled the promise?
Up next
After these messages
To be continued
When this happens
According to experts
It is not the outcome
That is desired
It is the desire
Of the anticipation
Of the outcome
That is anticipated
The moment coming
While the moment
Is here
The suspense
In either that
Your beliefs
Will be validated
Or be challenged
Either way
You win
Suspending disbelief
That both
May be correct
Validation validates
Perceptions
That you were
Right all along
Or challenges
You to fortify
Your position
So that
“Next”
“Time”
The repetition
Can be repeated
Whew, that was a longer than planned introduction to observations of the world around.
Might be something as simple as watching fluorescent orange cones appear on the road thinking oh great, that pot hole will be fixed. Corroborated by a dialogue you hear expressing the same thing.
Neither actually “knowing”, only to find out it is becoming a major road repair. Continually modifying thoughts and dialogue to mirror what “may” be happening as each moment blends in to the next, changing your head “story” to fit.
Or the current political situation, depending on your view, anticipates the firing, impeachment, quitting, jailing of number 45. Certainly in light of what might be considered blatant video taped contradictions (AKA “Lying) against “tweets”, stated alternative facts.
Walls, whos paying for walls, travel bans, health care, executive orders, golf, taxes etcetera. You get the picture.
While those who are desperately clinging to their pick, hang on to the notion that this self proclaimed magician is going to pull a rabbit out of his hair, everyone will applaud go home and get on with their lives.
It is like watching a bad tennis game where the ball is arbitrarily getting lobbed back and forth. Greatly hoping for your “player” to win. No points scored, no fouls made.
Till soon you could care less if “your” player wins or loses, you just want it to be over so you can go home.
Wearing everyone down so they’ll accept anything, as long as it is “over”, till the next wear down occurs.
Be vigilant, make all your own moments count in this life, regardless of the detours, distractions and deceptions.
The Anti -Theory to the Big Bang Theory
Am I a scientist? No.
Am I a spiritualist? No.
Am I a bi-pedal oxygen breathing, monoxide exhaling, red-blooded, skeleton supported, solar powered, carbon-based, gray matter thought reflector, earth inhabitant omnivore with a CDL? Yes.
A conceptual content and context hoarder. Someone who can take a “Ziggy” type quote like “Happiness is a clean windshield” and extrapolate it into the meaning of life.
Happiness is a clean windshield being the metaphor of being at peace because one’s view of the world has all the clarity of a precious diamond. While nestled comfortably in the mechanical womb like tractor cab, surrounded by the nutritious accoutrements of light, sound and heat, with the ability to accelerate, signal, navigate, maneuver and stop on a dime.
Manifesting a poverty of knowledge just above the destitute line, of the wherewithal needed to draw such bizarre conclusions.
Listening to Stephen Hawkings book “A Brief History of Time” find it fascinating for at least a couple of reasons, that the “big bang theory” is given any credence at all as a plausible explanation of the infinite cosmos.
Or the notion that the universe is expanding, as if somehow from this little blue green ball floating around the sun which is 90+ million miles away, in an off center band of the Milky Way. One of 100 Billion planets and stars in one of another 100 to 200 Billion galaxies.
Sounds a tad arrogant, for given its infinite size isn’t just contracting in a different direction, that can’t possibly be known about.
Frighteningly arrogant while attending a science conference in Rome, the Vatican opts to instruct the attendees not to look beyond the Big Bang Theory as that “resembles” the story of creation.
The worst arrogance of all, is the conceit and hopefulness of the author of this post to merely suggest that what is, is, has been, and always will be.
Regardless of what man made “proof” is doled out to give the illusion of control, that it might feel better about itself.
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“Space is the most taken for granted thing ever. You know how crazy it is that it’s above you, every day and never comes up.
If we all lived underground or indoors, there was only one place in the whole world……where you can see space, you know how popular that *** would be?
Everybody would travel to see space. You just stand there and hold hands and look up and go: “There’s no ceiling, it’s *** incre… It’s mindblowing!”
But instead it’s there everyday like: “Oh look the Big Dipper, I should go.”
People travel to see the *** Grand Canyon.”Hey dude, you’ve got to go to the Grand Canyon man, dude it changed my life man””
I stood up there and saw that canyon, it was so immense……i just realised how small my role in the universe really is.””
Oh, really? Wow! Hey, how about all that ***?””(Joe Rogan points up) What the *** are you talking about? Those aren’t light bulbs mother ***!””
Those are huge nuclear explosions billions of miles away……and it goes on forever. Do you know what forever means?””
It means this whole universe of hundreds of billions of galaxies……might just be a part of one atom……it’s in the cell of the balls of one guy who lives in another universe……it’s part of one atom, that’s a cell of a ball and a guy……and it goes on and on and on FOREVER!!!””
And there is no *** end! And you are looking at a ditch. You just drove six hours to look at a ditch, you are a *** dummy.””
You can see the bottom, why is that even interesting to you?””Oh yeah, yeah, you are small, it’s big.
“Space is some *** crazy ***!”
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“Infinity is so big, that everything that has ever happened, on earth in the exact same order, down to………. that … pause has happened an infinite number of times, all through out the universe.
Everywhere in space, there is a you, making the same colossal f**king errors, that you’ve made your entire life.
So if anybody ever tells you, you can do better. Go, apparently not.”
That’s infinity.”
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Joe Rogan
“I think we’re part of a greater wisdom than we’ll ever understand, a higher order, call it what you want. You know what I call it?
The Big Electron.
The Big Electron. Woooohhhh, woooohhhh, woooohhhh.
It doesn’t punish, it doesn’t reward, it doesn’t judge at all.
It just is, and so are we, for a little while.”
George Carlin
Thanks George
Am fortunate, on occasion to pull over on top of a summit at night on cloudless nights to observe that “truth”. For a “moment” or two.
Before climbing back in the tractor to be “Looking at the world, through a windshield”
Feeling and knowing the significance of my insignificance.
“99% of my life I was lied to ”
EMINEM
From “My name is”
“99% of my life I was lied to ”
Adopted was told, they tried to
Sarcasm declared denied you
Reality so vague to blind you
Search for the truth, climbed to
Damage done, put it behind you
Kept you they said they, liked you
Dig deeper, if you are so inclined to
Given a phrase to remind you
Recited as a sadistic haiku
“Ask me no questions
(As it will serve our purpose)
I’ll tell you no lies”
Told to be a ring bearer for a wedding
Being shy, an event I would be dreading
The following I can recall no kidding
Aw can’t you handle a simple ribbing
Over the hilarity we will be tripping
Walk down the aisle so slightly red
With a brunette flower girl I a tow head
Wine was drank broken was the bread
Could you repeat what you just said
At 4 years old to the little girl I was wed
Marriage so special you only do it once
Guess you figured me for a dunce
You made me believe it for months
Respect doled out was a mere pittance
Meant to be saved like an allowance
A desire to play the drums I requested
Take piano first just one year you insisted
Wanted to, so bad that I persisted
Told agreed two years truth being twisted
Kept feeling like mind was molested
You had the power, end of discussion
No matter to you never repercussions
Go along, to play instrument percussion
Learning not to believe was the lesson
Close in on myself, further regression
Action and dialogue not often jived
Questioning everything how I’ve survived
Do not feel the least bit at all deprived
Like Bill Hicks said this is just a ride
Maybe the truth is on the other side
Some people seem to have an inherent need and want to have to have an enemy.
Not myself, I choose to try to remove from my psyche any perceived adversaries, real, imaginary or told so otherwise. Its a perpetual battle.
I guess I am my own worst enemy.
……….Shit
Phlange formed firearm
Twitchy thumb trigger
Blasting bloodless bullets
Self serving suicidal suggestion
Pontificating paradigm positioning
Mucking murky mind
Mired in malignant maladies
Eschewing emotional irregularities
Correcting cerebral cortex
Contemplating celestial uncertainties
Acquiescing abhorrent answers
Angrily abiding altruism
“Unabridged”
To a community theater near you.
Where a group of construction workers find the meaning of life, while dismantling an overpass above abandoned railroad tracks.
Finding the remnants from an old train derailment of a freight car that was carrying dictionaries.
Yep, you guessed it, it’s a play on words.
Looking at the world through a windshield. 