And with that topic
To this post
Almost Immediately
Figured out
Why I am here
.
Which is…..
.
To clean my slate
.
For it was “clean”
When I got “here”
.
“Wouldn’t it be nice to have a kid? To have this fresh, clean slate which we could fill. A little clean spirit, innocent, and to fill it with good ideas.”
.
Yeah, yeah, how about this? If you’re so fucking altruistic, why don’t you leave the little clean spirit wherever it is right now?
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Okay? Horrible act, childbirth. Nightmare. Bringing … I would never bring a kid to this fucking planet…”
.
– Bill Hicks
.
(DISCLAIMER: This in no way reflects the love and adoration of my non-biological children and grandchildren.)
.
According to my
Empiricalistic perception
Going back to my first inhalation
I did so from the perspective
That I too was a “clean slate”
Fresh from the spirit realm
Or what I like to call
The celestial “green room”
.
Where you prepare for your
Earthly appearance
Rehearsing what you will say
How you will react to the hosts
Whilst receiving feedback
From the audience
.
Dare I say due to procrastination
I was not ready to go “on”
For I knew / believe and
According to Helen Wambach
In “Life Before Life”
That you me each one of us
“Pick” our parents
.
………..shit
.
That’s a responsibility
Not to be taken lightly
For with last minute decisions
You get last minute decision parents
Ones who wouldn’t even know
What a slate was or for
Let alone clean or that
They would be marking
It up at all or all up
.
I can only assume due to
Some technical glitch
The producers needed me
On stage “Earth” and whisked
Me out of the green room
Wishing me good luck
.
Holy #uck, I’m going to need it
.
So on the way out……or “down”
Since that is the commonly perceived
Cosmo-georaphical location
Of heaven
.
I quickly picked a nice place to live
Over the complex process of vetting
Enlightened parents with
Nurturing capabilities and
A penchant for evolutionary awareness
.
Better luck………next time
.
For just below the biological process
Understanding that planting a seed
In a fertile garden will grow a child
……..smack…whaaaa…I was now here
Clean slate……be damned
.
“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
.
To be continued on
.
“Cleaning My Slate”
Continued from “A Clean Slate”
Sometimes what gets
Embedded the deepest
is not that which
Strikes the hardest
Though that is
Everlasting too
.
It is the constant
Application of soft chalk
Layered on daily with
Persistent application
Repeated recitation
.
Though slumber erases
The daily incursions
Of lessons taught
Behaviors observed
.
The firm felt of that wool
Can only erase so much
Leaving the remnants
Pressed deeply in the
Pores cracks and crevices
Of the “precious” clean slate
.
Such as
.
Anger
Deception
Detachment
.
On the bright side
What was not etched in was
.
Sexism
Racism
Xenophobia
.
Sexism – mother and father did the same thing for the same pay, as far as I know
.
Racism – everyone’s money is green
.
Xenophobia – did not identify myself with my religion or its weakly indoctrination, therefore did not identify anyone else with theirs…….
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Thank God
.
Back to cleaning my slate
.
Anger – perhaps not anger rather temper
.
After all:
.
“Don’t trust anyone who isn’t angry.’
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– John Trudell
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Temper – Knowing this needs to be cleaned off of my slate, looked back to see when thiis was carved in. Oh yeah table tennis.
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Nice fun indoor sport, can’t get too winded or too hot. Learned from father, that if you miss an easy shot or difficult one is that somehow, striking the table with the paddle was okay.
.
That monkey mimicking behavior carried way beyond the ping-pong table and its notched paddle stricken ends where the children would later play and get blamed for its condition. Though the alleged adult could keep “playing” that way.
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Covered by the oft repeated mantra
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“Do as I say, not as I do”…Great…Thanks
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Deception – These fine “fine” particles are all over the board/slate ingrained deep. Plus occurring often albeit unintentional driven by social norms i.e. Santa Claus etc.
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However
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When I observed what I saw and knew what I was fully aware of then was dismissed or distracted from said awareness was cause for not only questioning reality rather questioning sanity.
.
I know what I saw, I’m old enough now
You can not gaslight me mother-father
.
“Watch what they do, not what they say.”
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– Rachel Maddow
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Detachment – This strike nearly broke the slate, expending every last bit of exhausted energy to hold it together. Without going in to details what needs to be removed from my “clean” slate is the notion that I “should” not have been born.
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Also, my grandfather’s business being firmly planted across the street from a funeral “home” (nice euphemism for business). Heard the constant cliché that someone was going on their “last ride”.
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Giggling away the sanctimonious whim that if death means nothing, neither does life….
.
I like yourself wonder how someone
In their mid 50’s is trying to work
Through childhood indoctrinations
.
Nevermind, you clean your slate
I’ll clean mine……
.
Let me know when you are done……
.
This last project started realizing
I was tired of my temper which is
Usually self directed and intense
Loathsome, lamenting & exhausting
Which only inflicts damage to my
Own slate, which is waiting to be
Cleaned before I can go back
.
To start all over again with a…clean slate
.
After carving in the reminder not to procrastinate and vet enlightened parents with nurturing capabilities and a penchant for evolutionary awareness.
.
Nevermind…those people won’t have children.
.
“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
FOR SALE
.
One of the fun parts of my job
Is reading billboard messages
.
Which at this point are about as
Necessary as the phone book
That is as thin as a magazine
And just as easily disposable
.
Really, there’s a hotel up ahead
Or restaurant or gas station, WOW
Stuff that little pocket gadget
Could bring you to in clear
Step by step friendly instructions
If you’re tired, hungry or need fuel
.
In 1/4 mile, turn right at the stop sign
.
This one really caught my eyes
Distracting me nearly enough to
Practically utilize its message
.
SECURE YOUR PLACE IN HEAVEN
.
Was the hugely BOLD EPISTLE
Followed by some biblical missive
With even smaller print of who
Sponsored the really big sign
.
Will have to drive by it again to read
Who the real estate group is selling
Oh yeah……the invisible real estate
.
“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
.
“You go to church and light a candle
And then you’re blinded by the light
From all the golden pews
The devil’s snapping at your toes now
Because the angels can’t be
Bothered to live up to you
.
They’re selling Jesus again
They’re selling Jesus again
They want your soul and your
Money, blood and your bones
They’re selling Jesus again
Selling love to you – selling love
.
You’re buying this
You’re buying that now
You’re wishing all the money
In the world belonged to you
You’re crucified
Upon your own cross now
You’re givin’ money
To the white men
In the white limo
That kind of god
Is always man-made
They made him up then
Wrote a Book to keep
You on your kness
They get their theories
From the same place
Then build a church
If there’s some money left
From lying on the beach
.
They’re selling Jesus again
They’re selling Jesus again
They want your soul and your money
Blood and your bones
They’re selling Jesus again
Selling love to you – selling love
They’re selling Jesus again
They’re selling Jesus again
They want your soul and your money, blood and your bones
They’re selling Jesus again
Selling love to you – selling love”
.
“Selling Jesus’
– Skunk Anansie
.
As long as I’m on this theme…
Slightly dated, yet always relevant
.
“Believe in me, send no money
I died on the cross and that ain’t funny
But my so called friends
They’re making me a joke
They missed out what I said
Like I never spoke
They choose what they want to hear,
They don’t tell a lie
They just leave out the truth
As they’re watching you die
They’re saving your souls
By taking your money
Flies around shit, bees around honey
.
Holy smoke holy smoke,
Plenty bad preachers
For the devil to stoke
Feed ’em in feet first, this is no joke
This is thirsty work, making holy smoke, yeah
Making holy smoke
.
Jimmy Reptile and all his friends
Say they gonna be with you at the end
Burning records burning books
Holy soldiers Nazi looks
Crocodile smiles just wait a while
‘Til the TV queen gets her make-up clean
I’ve lived in filth I’ve lived in sin
And I still smell cleaner than the shit you’re in
.
Holy smoke holy smoke, plenty bad preachers for the devil to stoke
Feed ’em in feet first, this is no joke
This is thirsty work, making holy smoke, yeah
Holy smoke
Smells good
.
They ain’t religious but they ain’t no fools
When Noah built his Cadillac it was cool
Two by two they’re still going down
And the satellite circus just left town
I think they’re strange and when they’re dead
They can have a Lincoln for their bed
Friend of the president trick of the tail
Now they ain’t got a prayer
A hundred years in jail
.
Holy smoke holy smoke, plenty bad preachers for the devil to stoke
Feed ’em in feet first, this is no joke
This is thirsty work, making holy smoke, yeah
Holy smoke”
.
“Holy Smoke”
.
– Iron Maiden
Was going to title this
Thought experiments
However when I m-w.com’d it
The first thing that came up
In the etymology was
Gedankenexperiments
.
:an experiment carried out in thought only
.
– M-W.com
.
Which looked and sounded cooler
Like Schadenfreude
One can almost sense the meaning
By pronouncing it
.
The mind is the laboratory
The Bunsen burner is time
The thoughts are the materials
Inextricably attached to words
Big and small, free and two bit
Mixed in as content and context
In the paragraph petri dish
.
It seems that this whole existence
Is merely a thought experiment
Replayed over and over again
Like in the movie “Groundhog Day”
.
Each day (lifetime) waking up (being born)
To the same world one just left
With a vague awareness that this time
One can / may correct their behavior
As if each lifetime were a day
Or each day was a lifetime
.
Waking up singing to oneself
.
“I Got You Babe”
.
So that you / God. You as God
Can better your behavior, thoughts
Actions, empathy, understanding
In ways that would allow you to move
Onto the next experiment / experience
.
How are you carrying out your
.
Gedankenexperiments ?
In my random and meager
Internet searches for biblical
References and passages
Not for truth rather for information
Perhaps inspiration…..maybe
Just definitely not the truth
.
Has landed me squarely
In the algorithmic clutches of
Corporations seeking profit
Through the “FREE” format
Of “social” media a.k.a the
Rumor mill and whine club
That grabs ones attention through
Pet pics and stupid human tricks
.
What comes up for “sale” is a
Detailed time-line representation
(Laminated “extra” for the up-sell)
Of allegedly everything that has
Ever occured since Adam and Steve
God’s original name was Steve
Before they played hospital as
Surgeon and patient to “create” Eve
.
You know….so they could …………
“Control” her…….Bwaha haha hehe
.
Then God said, “Let us* make mankind in our image, in our likeness”
.
–Genesis 1:26
.
* “Us” – meaning Adam and Steve
.
(Ooops, that’s how all this shit started)
.
Had to be all of the rest of the other
Beasts of the field birds in the air
Fish and whales of the oceans
Vegetation on the ground magically
Received their stamens and pistils
So they could reproduce after their kind
In one fell swoop or days 5 and 6
That’s a lot of surgeries in 2 days
.
Lest that part was left out of the story
Like leaving out where Caine’s wife
Came from so as not to be his sister
.
I am not going to buy this poster
Because its pitching point is that it
Covers existence from then to now
As only 6,000 years which would mean
That ship building selfish drunkard
Lived 1/10th of “known” eternity
.
By comparison if you lived to 80 it
Would be 1/75th of “known” eternity
That calculation seems a tad off
Probably when switching from a
10 month to a 12 month calendar
.
If I suspended disbelief anymore
I’d have to hang myself
.
Silly me I thought the fundamentalists
Believed it was 12,000 years old probably
……because I perceive “truths”
.
Through comedians
.
“Did y’all know..this is fascinating.
This is ab..solutely fascinating.
.
Fundamentalist Christians believe the world is 12,000 years old. Is that..let’s just think about that. Idn’t that great? And I ask them, how do you think that? Why do you think the world’s 12,000 years old? And they go,
.
“Well, we added up all the people born from Adam and Eve, added up their ages- roughly 12,000 years.”
.
Well, how scientific. I can’t ******’ argue with that kind of research.
.
You think the world’s 12,000 years old. “That’s right.” Ok, can I ask you a question? “Sure.” It’s a one word question. “Fine.”
.
…Dinosaur?
.
If the world’s 12,000 years old and the Bible covers it, why didn’t someone bring up ******’ dinosaurs? You’d think someone would have brought that up …somewhere in the g****** book.
.
..And Jesus and the disciples walked down the path towards Nazareth but, oh, the path was blocked by a giant brontosaurus with a splinter in his paw. And the disciples did run a-screamin’, “What a big ******’ lizard, Lord!” “I’m sure gonna mention this in my book”, ..said Luke. “Well, I’m sure gonna mention it in my book”, ..said Matthew. “I’m not sure what I saw”, …said Thomas. Timothy nudged him. “It was a big ******’ lizard, Thomas!”
.
But Jesus was unafraid. And he took the splinter from the brontosaurus’ paw and the brontosaurus became his friend. And Jesus sent him to Scotland where he lived in a loch oh, so many years attracting fat American families with their fat ******’ dollars to look for the Loch Ness Monster. And oh, the Scots did praise the Lord. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Lord.
.
12,000 years old… I asked this guy- Come on, man. Dinosaur fossils. What’s the deal? He goes, “God put those here to test our faith.” I think God put you here to test my faith, dude. I think I’ve figured this out. That’s what this guy said. Does it bother anyone here- the idea that God might be ******’ with our heads?
.
Anyone have trouble sleepin’ restfully with that thought in their head? God’s runnin’ around, buryin’ fossils. “Oh, ho, ho! We’ll see who believes in me now! Oh, ho, ho. I’m a prankster God! I am killing me, oh, ho, ho!”
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You die, you go to Saint Peter- “Did you believe in dinosaurs?” “Well, yeah. There was fossils everywhere!” BOOM! AAAHHH! “What are you, an idiot? God was ******’ with you! Giant flyin’ lizards! You moron! That’s one of God’s easiest jokes!” “It seemed so plausible! AAAGHHH!” Bound for the lake of fire.
.
//
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While I appreciate your quaint traditions, superstitions, y’know. I, on the other hand, am an evolved being who deals solely with the source of light which exists in all of us in our own minds. No middleman required. “
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– Bill Hicks
In this
Instant
There is only
This
Moment
In
Sync
With
Not this
Second
Or the
Last
One
Or the next
One
Rather
All of them
Which go by
In a flash
Only because
We perceive
Linearly
Instead of
Infinitely
As it is hard to
Unwind
Perceptions
Against the
Ticking
Of information
That
Flows
Like the
Sand
Through the neck
Of the
Hourglass
That knows not
Time
Only gravity and
Still
Its
Current
Is
Measured
Against what
Flies
In the
Face
Of convention
For example this
Post
Which
Present-ed
Itself as
The title of
Timing
Instantaneously
Had to be transcribed
Letter by letter
Moment to
Moment
Though the reader
Captures
Its essence as
If it just
Happened
Whenever
They find a
Chance
To process the
Sequence of
Seeing / reading
Interpreting and
Registering
Regardless what
Day
It is or if the
Sundial
Can be viewed
.
“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
.
Thanks for taking the
Time
To read this
Ooops, this allllmost got lost
In the topical blog sauce cue
.
Cryptic Catchphrases
.
Popping up everywhere
“Your City” “Strong”
Believe in “Your City”
“Your City” blah, blah blah etc…
.
“Respectfully I say
What the #uck does that mean?”
.
– George Carlin
.
Not to be completely insensitive
Since they popped up after
Stay at home orders were issued
At first I kinda got it, sorta, maybe
.
Then you read it again elsewhere
In a different but similar city
Over and over again and again
.
“Your City” “Strong”
Believe in “Your City”
.
My first inclination is to question stuff
Unlike the sign that reads
.
This lane Right Turn Only
.
A clear directive followed by
A black arrow pointing right
Boom, point made and taken
No ambivalence of meaning
.
Each and every time it is read
For everyone who reads it
Even if the only thing they see
Is a black arrow pointing right
.
However “Believe in “Your City”
Is vague without direction
Passed by often enough
One can only desperately
Try to decipher its meaning
.
If you don’t believe in it
What is going to happen
.
(If you clap your hands or do not
Tinkerbell will still be okay *)
.
A city is an entity made up
Of people occupying buildings
In a set parameter for tax purposes
Distant or adjacent to other cities
.
Am I the only one questioning this
.
Here’s another one I saw
.
“Pray for our country”
.
“Respectfully I say
What the #uck does that mean?”
.
– George Carlin
.
# 1 Pray to who or what
# 2 Pray for how long
# 3 If someone else reads the sign but their prayer in some way contradicts my prayer do they cancel each other out?
.
How about “Pray For Our Globe”
……Nevermind…….
.
That might be something
Buddha, Allah or Jesus might suggest
.
Here’s another sign
.
Have faith in god……….
.
? Which one ????????
.
………to do ?????? What?
.
Seriously what?
.
Just faith
As a verb, a noun, an adjective
.
What other catchphrase represent
Such empty words from empty vessels
.
Besides at some point
These signs will come down
As they are now
For a variety of reasons
.
To which I wonder
Did their directives work?
Or not
.
Unfinished sentiments
Carried out to no end
.
Save someone profiting
……Off of sign making
.
I just knew if I kept writing
I would figure it out…Ta-dah
.
Wasting money on resources
Ink, plastic, trees and t-shirts
.
“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
.
*
“The Tinkerbell effect is an American English expression describing things that are thought to exist only because people believe in them. The effect is named after Tinker Bell, the fairy in the play Peter Pan, who is revived from near death by the belief of the audience.”
.
– Wikipedia
Words are like
Tea leaves
How they get
Interpreted
.
Is based on
What the
Perceiver
Reads into them
.
Ever changing in
Content and context
Emotions mood
Volume and tone
.
Read or heard
Source or sources
Authority or rebellion
Once or repeated
.
Whether be the “sitter”
Or be the “consultant”
Interpretations are
Left wide open to all
.
“Just an observation,
Maybe I need
Different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
.
Or perhaps
….Hearing aides
Changes
.
When you see things
In a different light
.
Recently “had” to
Pick up a package
At the facility of
One of those
Behemoth carriers
Of small packages
.
First it was amazing
To watch the “sort”
Down a conveyor belt
Out of a large trailer
Into the many waiting
Hands of the sorters
Into the many many
Burgeoning route trucks
.
Beyond its initial
Appearance of being
What it was it looked
Like a scene out of
A Las Vegas movie
In the back room
Counting the money
.
Upon later reflection
It was more like a scene
In a drug distribution
Operation of moving
Profitable product in
Again a closed room
.
If either were true
Society’a “authority”
Would be called in
To cease both “crimes”
.
One to keep the “drug”
(Buying stuff to feel good)
Out of the “addicted’s”
Hand and head “vice”
.
The other to arrest
The gross profiteers
Profiting off of a
Scourge to community’s
Health and well being
.
If in one hour they moved
A thousand packages
Averaging $15 a package
That is $15.K an hour
Just going to the middleman
Distributor corporation
.
The “problem” is unfortunately
Not the problem it is how this
Society operates as a whole
Beyond commoditized necessities
Buying stuff from people who
Make stuff so they to have
Money to buy more stuff too
.
Meanwhile not all the people
Have rooves over their heads
Or adequate food in their bellies *
.
I would not be a very good
Observationalist if I did not
Recognize that I too
Contributed to this
Planetary crime
Being there to pick-up
A package as well
.
Only to find out
It didn’t work and
Didn’t need it
In the first place
Only to turn up missing
Unable to return it
.
Side note:
.
This was occurring at
One company in a small
City in a sparsely
Populated state
To which when I first
Arrived at 4:00 o’clock
In the morning mistook
Me as an applicant
Looking for a job
.
Whisked me immediately
To a room to fill out
An application like they
Would have hired me
On the spot to start now
.
“Just an observation, maybe I need different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
.
When you’re stepping over a homeless guy on the sidewalk…
.
Does it ever occur to you to think
.
“Wow – maybe our system doesn’t work?!”
.
– Bill Hicks
Life seems to be the
Manifesting maintaining
Marketing and manipulation
Of various archetypes
.
Created when a need arises
Structuring to control behavior
Modifying to adapt to currents
Sold as beneficial for purchase
.
One can be relatively sure that
Millions of years ago when
Life forms were forming
Out of the primordial ooze
.
There were no Kings or Queens
Doctors lawyers or politicians
Bank robbers or drug addicts
Slaves or slave owners (CEO’S)
.
Just slimy single cell amoebas
Searching for food and light
Splitting reproducing evolving
Mutating to survive elements
.
In balance with nature always .
What lives dies decays reforms
Regroups regenerates relives
Towards a higher intelligence
.
Why just because it can why not
Slithering crawling breathing air
Converting dioxide into monoxide
Trading with trees mutual benefit
.
Growing opposable thumbs standing
Inventing tools and weapons to eat
Still finding balance honoring sacrifice
Knowing all part of the chain of life
.
Archetyping tribes for survival
Growth family similar sapiens
Painting stories on caves or
Carcass coverings to convey
.
Info to subsequent generations
Stir imaginations learn remember
Understand share adapt repeat
Hunt gather eat grunt together
.
Where evolution probably took
A grinding halt was when tribes
Encountered “different” sapiens
When were first mistook as food
.
Once past that embarrassing faux pas
The alpha male primitive took hold
As an originating archetype over
What seemed to be “foreign” beings
.
Till each burgeoning surviving group
All had to move around for food
Then finding the best locations with
Abundant resources to claim as “theirs”
.
Probably first with walls that what
It didn’t keep out kept in oooops
Then with flags then with pieces
Of paper than all three together
.
Establishing territorial archetypes
That all of a sudden shared land
Was no longer to be shared rather
Divided differently by “different” tribes
.
When logic of their bullshit ran aground
Invisible archetype deities were formed
Of all powerful invisible men who could
Create judge assist manipulate and kill
.
Which still continue today all because
Clever groups with imaginations over
Gullible simpletons transcribed info
Onto papyrus re-read modify and adapt
.
As the basis of social legal precedence
To establish authority archetypes that
Decides its own rule making ability to
Control the behavior of said simpletons
.
Distracted instead of searching within
For common Gaia bond that spawned
Each individual from the same nurturing
Source that knows no separation or hate
.
Which is not an archetype at all merely
The reality of what can be viewed from
A distance warmed and illuminated by
A burning sphere nurturing all of life
.
Of which the cessation of actually living
Is compartmentalized into archetypes
Structured regiments of learning eating
Working sleeping consuming dying
.
Followed by the subset archetypes of
Race religion gender / genderless roles
Gun owners / non gun owners pitted
Against each from their safe archetypes
.
Think of all of the archetype
Regimented structures you
Fall in to or line up with
Just because they are present
.
Parent, worker, epidermis hue beliefs
Geographical birth language customs
Religion by region money by nation
Colorful rag waved songs you sing
.
Pride you take land ancestors took
Brands you buy sports you watch
Teams you claim metaphorically own
Beliefs indoctrinated into
.
All because you’ve nestled into
Comfortable “safe” to you archetypes
Mental structures of thought
Reactions taught life consumed
.
What is the alternative
Teaching what is known
To those who know better
Adhering to unnatural archetypes
.
While it is no easy task
To break free of or dismantle
Established archetypes you can
At least question and understand
.
“Just an observation, maybe I need different glasses.”
.
– Angelo Devlin
Looking at the world through a windshield. 